Friday, 6th of October

I haven't been doing anything since I stepped in to the office for about 2 hours ago.

Web browsing, chatting and playing games were all I did.
Not forgetting to act like as though I am working. (pokerfacegamestrong)

Got bored of everything then I was contemplating to write a post or not.

Here I am typing this.

What do I have in mind to wrote about?!
I do want to write a post of:-
1. A new cafe we went.
2. New job.
3. What made me resigned from my previous employer.
4. How was the resignation.
5. My usual short updating or when I am bored posts. 

I have always said that I haven't been blogging properly.
Plain lazy, not wanting to look at the PC after work and all in all didn't find the time (passion) to write anymore.

My most active days was when I broke up with my first love, I was so torn then and the only way to relieve myself from sorrows was through blogging.
Through words, I expressed my emotions, sorrows and loneliness.

As years gone by, I grew over time.
I learnt to handle emotions better in the form of love (not well in many other ways, as life is always about learning)
Self discovery, healing and embracing; love happens / love falling apart etc.

Also over the years, I've graduated cause I think I was still in my uni days when I broke up.
Although on and off I did wrote posts.
I have also switched jobs since.
I am currently in my third job switch with both jobs previously were between 1.5 years to slightly over 2 years.
I am a working adult now, managing my own finances and working hard to acheieve dreams in life.

I am still single by the way, always hoping to meet my Mr. Right soon.
Not exactly looking or finding for one, just hope that this person will be in my life some day.

Let's wrap this post for now.
It's almost lunch hour.
Some colleagues went out as early as 11.30am for lunch.
Oh yes, the office is really quiet today. More quieter for me as my talkative neighbor is on MC.
I brought food and I'll lunch "in", hopefully no disturbance.


Edited to add my lunch for today (lunch alone), no one in the office.
Done eating, watching a documentary now.

No rice day!

At 4.30pm On A Wednesday - 7/06/17

On the month of Ramadhan (Muslims’ fasting month/Holy Month), my colleagues are able to leave office a hour earlier. This makes the office being very quiet after half past four. It’s been two weeks now whilst me too have been leaving on time after working hours. As for today, I am already off work since 3ish. Self declared for being very free. Basically no mood and seriously kinda free, as in not too hectic with reports and clearing some “shit”.

I am now basically waiting for the clock to touch off working hours and I am done. But…I am too hungry that I bought a Roti John to share with a colleague. That means I will not be able to leave on time. Hence, I will leave once I am done eating.

Then again, I am contemplating if I should hop to the mall to get a pair of slippers. My Crocs slippers that I’ve been wearing for more than a good two years are worn out. I am still wearing it in and out the house and while I drive but I felt embarrassed to wear it out when I meet people. And this weekend I have a family even to attend which I will be outstation over the long weekend. Definitely a pair of presentable slippers is needed out and about the hotel room as I will be heading to a small and cosy town with relatives.  

Let me decide once I am done eating. Hungry and cold now, can’t wait till half past five to get to the pantry to eat and chill since I am already feeling bored at my place. That when I am writing this post.

Thirteen minutes to go.

Till then… 

Oh, simply had a title for this post and noticed the date is 17/06/17. Nothing much... ^^

Almost time, in ten minutes... 

Edited: WHOPPPSSSSS..... it's not 17 but 7th of the month... Hahaha.. 

Dear SE Boss's Boss

Dear Boss’s BOSS,

I am not sure when will be the best time to meet you to raise my concerns to you as I am uncertain how should I approach you and when will it be convenient.

I am utterly helpless and speechless in this situation as a subordinate sitting under my boss’s team.

I am uncertain too if this is a personal attack towards my attitude at work which unlikely of as I still have respects towards a boss and an elderly, also I reduce my contact with her to avoid these undesired  treatments.

My concern is that if I have done any mistakes in my job task, I am open to being approached, scolded, advised and corrected.

Nonetheless, I am not able to being put words or mistake in my mouth for things I did not or have not done wrong.

Just like on Monday which was the company’s new logo unveiling, I came up to the office at 3.30pm but I was being angrily told off and questioned that why am I hanging around downstairs when everyone else was back in the office.

At that moment of time, not many people were back at their workstations. Then I was being questioned why did I eat downstairs even after I had lunch.

My boss wanted me to check on the LC of India project – Virgo and Erson that I checked soon after.

In this situation, I felt humiliated as though eating at a company event was wrong.

Next, was that WOMAN wanted to know and check on things which I excel in, instead she asked a more senior in age and year of service colleague. This colleague then needed to come and check with me. For goodness sake, such an unprofessional BOSS she is. Just a boss being Bossy but not a leader who leads the subordinate.  

Then, yesterday she told me to check on NAP’s Invoice for collection, I met Syams on this and I have also dropped an email subsequently. Later I have also explained to Kak Eej on the progress.

This morning, that WOMAN told Kak Eej angrily that “I told someone to go and check but that person did not check”.

Please be fair and true, I have done what I was told to. What her problem and Why must she talk in this manner?! What have I done wrong?!

Last but not least things that she wanted me to hear or be aware of, she spoke extremely LOUD and STERN. Such a kid's action, childish much. She thinks that I will ever assist to check or respond. Opps, no more! I have enough and sick of her behaviour. 

Best-est regards, 

Your Subordinate's SUBORDINATE. 

P/S : I felt so unappreciated at work and I do not feeling like coming to work anymore.

Random Write Up & Dear Netbook

How rarely do I write a blog post compared to ever since I started my blog, on a count from 1 to 10; probably only 1% of 1 that I did wrote blog posts over the past one year. I've missed writing and expressing myself through words. I've gotta admit that I wished I dedicate more time on this because I find peace in writing. But, my work had had kept me very much occupied over the past one year, Also, it was emotionally and mentally tiring to keep up with the office restructuring, project and people at work. 

Today's been a day I am squeezing the very bit of time to sit and write because 

1. I'm passing my BELOVED Netbook to my dad. 

2. Public holiday for the state I worked in. 

3. Staying at home doing nothing. 

4. Not playing my usual mobile games. 

5. Completed the drama series that I've been chasing to finish. 

Excuses much, Haha!! 

Oh well, indeed on my usual days over the weekends I will not want to switch on the computer again and hence, I do not blog. I don't really Facebook too even though there is an app. 

Let's reserve the excuses and get started as I can only spend a little time on this. 

Gotta pack and get ready for work tomorrow after a long break. 

Not just a long weekend break, I was on a long medical leave since end of November all till now that is mid of December. I'll reserve the details for my next post (hopefully) because I said I would like to share my experience on my fear of walking in and getting a minor procedure done all alone. The pain, the mental strength and the courage, I think I deserved a pat on the back. One week of MC plus the weekends and holidays hence, it was a long recovery period. Thank God. All is well now and I'm fit to be at werk (work) or else my boss will sack me.

Okay next, I mentioned that I'll be passing my Netbook to my dad?! >_< Yes, I am. He requested it to bring along if he needs to travel in order to enable him to continue his FB games. Gosh... Yeaps, my dad plays online games (like addicted). Mehhhh... 

Dear Netbook, 

Thank you for serving me well. You've are still functioning well though I can't expect much as you're just running on Atom unlike desktops and laptops. You have served me well throughout my Uni days with the many assignments to write up and also some study materials. Besides that, you've been a great partner during my Lasallian convention days as you're small and light to travel with despite your speed. But hey, I managed to get work done with you. Bravo, my beloved! 

My biggest fear when I did not have extra cash to get a laptop back in my uni days was when you fail me. While you behaved well whereby I only replaced the battery pack once. Back then, I was constantly worried that you will not be able to survive through my Final Year Project. Final semester on my final year with not much savings, I definitely could not afford to get something new. Thankfully, we pulled it through and I've graduated for 2 years plus now. 

Then, I used you very rarely once I started working and my current job provides me a laptop which means you have been set aside for awhile. Every time, I switch you on I'd worry that you'll not light up as it was once in a blue moon which I think your battery will be fully drained off. Always being thankful (lucky) you did not fail me. Love you!!! ^^

Oh ya.. Oh ya.. another thing I like about you is that you have a memory card reader for my camera's memory card. I seldom use it but I like it cause there is no need to hunt for an external card reader which I heard it can easily cause virus to the PC. 

Now, I've cleared up all my data and did a virus scan before passing it to my dad. I am sure he'd take good care of you. Please, be nice to him. 

I have owned you for 6 years and still counting. 

Thank you for walking through with me for the past years, during my uni and Lasallian days. 

I appreciated that I owned you because I wouldn't know how else would I be able to own a device for my studies. Those years were the days I needed a PC most for studies and my very active involvement in the Lasallian movement. 

A snapshot of my dearest before I cleared the data.

Thank you once again. 

With love, 

Your owner. 

P/S : Tomorrow will be my first day of work ever since my medical leave, I had a bad dream or somewhat nightmare this morning in my sleep. I dreamt that my boss changed my jobscope without notifying me which I will take it hard on myself. Worst was that there are mountains of invoices which are not under my custody/work nature was all stacked on my desk. Colleagues were complaining to my boss on the late payment and me being me I made a big fuss in the office saying that it was not supposed to be done by me moreover, I was on medical leave. Nightmare isn't it. Let's see tomorrow. 

Cheers xx

Rasa Kehidupan

Keletihan rasa masam,
Kesunyian rasa pahit,
Keperitan rasa pedas,
Kesedihan rasa masin...

Jikalau kita campurkan semua dengan baik, rasanya tentu sedap.

Begitu juga dengan kehidupan...

Kalau macam itu, apakah yang rasa manis?

Apabila memandang orang yang dicintai, rasanya manis.
Apabila memegang tangan orang yang dicintai, rasanya manis.
Apabila mendengar suara orang yang dicintai, rasanya manis.
Apabila berada di sisi orang yang dicintai, rasanya manis.
Apabila orang lain rasa iri hati terhadap kita dan pasangan, rasanya manis.
Apabila sesuatu perkara boleh dijadikan kenangan, rasanya manis.
Kejutan dalam kehidupan semuanya manis...

Perasaan dalam hidup berbagai-bagai rasa!

I Journal The Unhappiness

I sometimes wonder why do I write more about what that bothers me. 

I rarely share the occasions that makes me happy. 

It may looked like I live in the saddest in life. 

That I am a very negative person. 

Yea, I have to admit that I can be very negative.

But, I will not let it suck me up!

I do have many happy moments.

I know when I need to be positive. 

Yet, I choose to write most of the heartache stories. 

Journal-ing is  a way I express my unhappiness.  

I write my unhappiness as a form of releasing my emotions.

Despite having really close friends, I choose not to share with anyone.

I always kept what upsets me in my heart. 

Till, I learnt the art of writing it out. 

Enjoyment may not be the perfect word to fit why I'd prefer to journal unhappiness. 

But, the sense of relief I gain from it is what that will make me feel better.

Fourth of July Twenty Sixteen

Hello...

Stealing some work time right after lunch to write a few words.
Is not like I went lunch or I ate anything but I took a break from handling all the papers on my table to randomly browse the net and the brother texted.

Initially I'd thought I will just close my eyes to rest and to Blog since I haven't been writing for some time. I always wanted to try writing from my Mobile but I have yet to give it a try or figure out how to do so.

Option 1 :
Write using Note or Words and copy&paste via the Web Browser on my mobile.

Option 2 :
Download the App, I think I've seen it somewhere.

Let's get back to papers at work despite the quiet office's environment as it is Raya season and Boss is away for work.

Yippieeeee but not so fun....

P/S : I will try the mobile blogging so that I can always Blog. I miss writing as in the form of words I pen down to express my emotions rather than sharing to a listener.

I DO Want to be MARRIED, Mother!

Chinese New Year has gone by. Hence, we are called as another year older despite the month we are born. This is not as important for my topic today. What’s bothering me or the question I have often been asked was that if I have a boyfriend? With my age this year, though I am not where touching Thirty but I am not that young but never too old. This Chinese New Year, I have been asked by my parents and mum’s friends. I should say that I have been asked by them last year onwards.

Then, just over the weekend my mum and I was talking about boyfriend and marriage. I told her that I want someone in life. She then told me that it is alright to not get married. I said No way and I stared at her. I asked her why did she said that and I said who said I am fine not being married.

She said, unlike sister… When sister was younger, she always said she wants to be married. Fine, I said “Mum, I do want to be MARRIED”. Hmmmm…Mum said…like this you’ll sure to be married.

My closest friend would know that I always needed someone in life and I've always wanted to be married to the man I love and have a family with him. I still have that in mind no doubt I have failed relationships. I do not mean that I want be marry anyone or any time soon but I do want to be married.

Till the day I find the love of my life, I patiently wait and pray for my better half to be in my life and share a life journey together

I have met this person. I pray...