June 03, 2015

I am slacking. Oh well, it is the last week that I can slack because the colleagues who is sitting next to me will be returning to work after a 3 week break. I will not be so free & easy then because she will be able to see what I am doing. Besides, my immediate superior is on-leave today. I am having the row roll of working desks all to myself. Nonetheless, didn’t I mention before that the CCTV is just above me?! Yeaps, it is and it captures what I have been doing all these while, I supposed. Oh well, even if it did and can see what I have been doing so what? Sac me and pay me. I am not in the mood to be in this place anymore.

It all comes back to how lucky am I to be offered a job elsewhere. I hope it will really be soon. *desperately hoping* Then, I will feel better and more hopeful of my future. May God bless me, thank you! Sincerely. If I am to resign soon, the more I couldn’t care less about the CCTV seeing what I am doing. Of course, I will still be cautious with the colleagues around because I can’t be too obvious that I am slacking. If ever they check the CCTV, I should be dead! *someone gonna get it real bad* LOL…

I have been playing basically for the day, feeling emo after I scroll through my gallery and saw pictures of my beloved. I got even more emotional. The feeling of missing and longing for the person. Dear Lovey, I really miss you. I hope that I don’t need to keep a distance from this person anymore. He is my pillar of strength, my tranquilizer, my clown, my listener, my soulmate and all of me for all these years. I wish I could tell him that. It is so tough to go through this tough time. It is breaking me. Then, my colleague called me to go for lunch. Goodness, keep me away from dwelling in emotions. Thank you.

#EGG Sandwich for lunch J

[loving the egg yolk]

P/S: Slacking by browsing the place that I did love to go on a Solo trip when I drop by to SG real soon.

June 02, 2015

I am rather relaxed this month around when I do the month-end closing.

I have finished my part and I am still waiting for my fellow colleagues from branches to submit the report to me. Needless to say, I have a report here waiting for me to do it and to be submitted to the Singapore office. I am reluctant to do it and I am still slacking it.

I have been texting my friends the whole morning while I did complete the closing I am supposed to do.

Then, it was about lunch time. I brought cream crackers spread with kaya was actually for breakfast but I didn’t have the mood to eat and I kept it for lunch. So, lunch was a cup of Nestum and the 6 slices of cream crackers. Too light for lunch obviously but I am not in the mood to go out for lunch neither did I prepare anything last night or this morning because I went home late hence, slept late and was reluctant to wake up this morning.

I went for dinner and movies with a close friend. I bought a relatively cheap handbag for work too. There are two colors for the bag I bought, I liked the red but bought the black. Black is classier, professional and appropriate for work. Red is obviously stunning, daring and eye-catchy. So tempted to get the red one but was worried of the comments gonna be “Wow RED?! for work?” or “Dinah loves RED” which I get it all the time because a lot of my things are in red coincidentally. Red has always been the eye-catcher color compared to black despite black looking classier. Nonetheless, to my aunties who often tell me to avoid choosing black because it’s dull. Black may sometimes make a person look like old too. Oh well, it’s just a bad to work and I do need to go to customers’ office and so, black is a safer choice.

The office is so cold, probably because I sat here through lunch when there were not many people in. Besides, I did not have proper food to heat the body. Maybe…  It is so chilly that I feel like snuggling under the comforter in bed. Ok, I got really sleepy and I went to the toilet. I took a good 5 seconds nap by sitting on the covered toilet seat and rest my head on my arm on the basin.

As I am pretending to do some work, well it is still my monthly task; my manager asked me to help her with some powerpoint, shapes and chart. I saw the renovation plan and the moving process will begin in August. Subsequently, the renovation will kick-off till December followed by moving back in to the renovated office in January. I am so reluctant to know about the moving process because there will be a lot of things to pack and move. We are all ladies in the department. I am not fond of it. I hope I will receive good news about job offers sooner that I hope for. Actually, I have been hoping for an offer since March. I am hoping high but I am worried at the same time that there will be no offer at all that I will have to stay here for another year. I will have a separate post on this soon.

I am to wrap up this post soon. Maybe at 4pm. I just can’t concentrate at work today. Reason being it was a dramatic start to the day with me not having enough sleep and feeling exhausted. Can I also skip the case and continue with wrapping up this post. It is a long story. Lesson today that is NEVER BE TOO CLOSE TO A COLLEAGUE & NEVER TELL A COLLEAGUE SO MUCH PERSONAL STUFF!!! I AM THREATEN AND I AM DEAD SCARED/WORRIED…for the whole morning, whole day…I am still thinking about it.

So cold… It’s down pouring… I can’t wait till 5pm… I am going home early!