Tunes of My Heart

I had a Bad Romance in the past




Sometimes, I feel that I Need You Now




It's all because Your Love Is My Drug

A romance that was sweet turned bitter affecting me to need you even after you left because I am drugged by you causing an addiction to love.

~ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ~

Sunday Diary

Dear Diary,

Woke up at 9.30, the first thing my aunt asked was Why so early? =_=''

No, I have been waking up around this time the whole week.

Alright, woke up feeling a lil crappy because I dreamt of a person I don't wish too.

For both days' my sleep was disturbed with dreams of the same person, guess I don't need to mention who.

Had a cup of milk and a slice of bread for breakfast.

Waiting to go shopping with my aunties.

Then, another aunt called asking what we wanna eat.

Char Kuey Teoy for Petaling Street - yummy.

Was suppose to go shopping but ended up staying at home.

Why? Emo because I was reflecting on my dreams.

Yes, I remembered my dreams with that person. Annoying :s

Thus, started blogging.

No lunch for today, the Char Kuey Teoy is counted as one, I guess.

At around four something, made chinese french toast plus a kaya banana toast.

Grandma, aunt, cousin and I enjoyed tea time. The toasts was good *thumbs up for myself* =D

Continued writing about my journey in my first semester.

Boring...sitting down doing nothing. Argh...relaxing minus the emoing.

Ooooo...time for dinner with mummy, daddy, and the married couple.

Shabu shabu at Bandar Puteri.

At first, I felt annoyed when I heard Bandar Puteri. I had memories at that area.

Anyway, I had a great time eating. whee...

After dinner, went to IOI Mall. Gosh, a place where I always go last time. Sigh...

But' it's okay. It didn't bother me much because I told myself not to relate my current life with my memories.

I should learn to put aside the memories with that person. I  should learn to enjoy life without him too.

Smile more.

Did some shopping, daddy paid *woot woots*

Headed back home.

That's all for today.

Overall, it was a not too bad Sunday.

Will have more great days ahead, not being affected by the past. =)

Till then.

New schooling day tomorrow.

Time for bed.

xoxo

The Journey of First Sem

I started my uni life in a brand new year of 2010. Started uni in January after a year long break from education. I did enjoyed my past one year without books but work to gain some experience. A little anxious to start studying again, worrying that I have lost interest in studies.

Now back to business. Semester One was from January till April with a month of sem break in May. Uni life was fun after all, skipped some classes, slept some lectures, made new friends and the list goes on. It was fun in uni. Subjects wise were all fine except for ITC where I didn't do well and MGT that I give less interest.  I love accouting though.

I have to say that I didn't really do well in my studies for the first sem. At first, I spent too  much time for some trap and after the change happened, I thought I could concentrate in my studies since there will be no more distraction. But, hell no. I couldn't study at all. Worst was it was going to be my finals. I tried my best to study. When ever I study silently, my mind seem to be some where else. Thinking of some crap stuff and some crap jerk. Yes, crap! I ended up crying while studying then I chuck the books aside and distract myself from thinking crap.

Finals arrived. Went into the exam hall with merely 80% of what I was supposed to study. Freaking scary and was worried I might just hand in a blank question paper for all four subjects. Gosh...God Blessed. Luckily, I managed to answer some and wrote some unrelated stuff. Screwing up the whole examination. My bad, I know but I myself can't help. Under severe condition of emoness and depression a went trough it. All in all, I will not regret but I'd did learnt a lesson, a life experience.

Then followed by sem break after finals. At first, I was thinking only a month break wasn't enough. As time goes by when I was really free, I disliked holidays because I had some much time thinking of someone that who is not worth my thoughts. I had a camp and a conference that kept me busy. That weren't able to keep me not thinking for long. I was upset some times and needed accompany from friends. Then again, how much can friends be around you. Done, over and I did spent some time with my friends. I was much better towards the end of my break. The best thing when I was upset, my bestie called. It was always nice and felt beter after talking to her. She knows it all from A to Z. Thank you, bestie. I love you. I miss you.

Time flies and it's the last day of sem break. Which means I am starting my second sem in less than 24 hours. Oh new sem, in that case the results should be out. Nope, results are yet to be released. Guess what, it's tomorrow. Gosh...now I am worried if I pass all my subjects. I am not expecting any high grades because I know that I didn't do well. I am just hoping for a passed for all my papers. Just that will do. I learnt a lesson and I am going to do well in my studies. I knwo there is a no point for allowing that affecting my studies. Love can't guarantee my future; Education can guarantee a bright future.

Besides, I need to choose the subjects for the new sem. Thus, I have a desicion to make by tomorrow. However, I do am not certain on which subject to choose. I planned to take up four subjects again with one law paper and three calculation subjects *sounds scary*. Business Math seems interesting but is it important and needed? I ain't sure. I have yet to register, still pondering if it's the right choice.

I can't believe that I am saying this but yes, I can't wait to start classes again. Break was fun yet boring. Prolly, I did not spend it wisely or it could be all the crap. Minus all that, I had a great rest. Classes shall be more fun from all the coming semesters. Forgetting the past of first sem, awaiting the brand new sem and more to come. Hoping that I will pass my exams, choosing the right subjects and doing well in my studies. Anticipating for all the happenings from now on. 

The end.

News Feed : Hid

Latest updates : photos

- 2nd Hennessy Artistry 2010  @ Zouk KL -

Studied his face for the final time

Buried it into my heart :'(

Clicked on the *hide* button

Hide that person

Mission Accomplished

yay ^^

Not gonna see any

updates about that person anymore

Is the first few hours

I hope I can control myself

Have faith in me

Give me the courage

Be obedient to maintain strong

Carry on to make an effort to move on

Be happy as deserved

Smile =D

Tu Me Manques

I never wanna say it but I miss you suddenly

I miss all the times we had together

A big part of my time in the first quarter of 2010 was with you

You once loved me deeply madly affecting me to open my heart just for you

Soon when I go crazy about you the uncertainty occured 

You hurt me melancholically leaving scars in my heart unheal till now

Not knowing when I will fully move on

I know how much I miss you

However

I have a whole loads of reasons

I shouldn't miss you anymore

Just a sudden strike of the past

Came across my mind and soul

I miss you

Soon

I will not miss you

~Tu Me Manques~

News Feed

Guess what...

I haven't hide yet.

Last night,

I told myself that I will

by the next update.

Yet, I haven't do it!

Yup, there was some updates;

I saw

new friends added,

profile picture changed,

But

No status update.

Anyway, the main thing is

I should just hide it.

Said is easier than done!!!

I have no heart to do so.

However,

I know I have to

and

I will make myself to do it.

Is not one day

because that one day will not arrive.

Is

Now or Never!!!

By the next update,

no matter what just do it.

Do it and I will be better *maybe*

I may move on faster,

will I ?

I dislike you but I still think of you

I am feeling bored. In mixture of feelings, loneliness and emotional. Somehow, I feel like blogging but I didn't want to write anything that relates him anymore. I know I should stop writing about him because it will not help me to forget him. I hope this will be the last one. However, I will not promise that.

I don't know how to describe my feeling towards him now. I dislike him and I still think of him at the same time. Do I still miss him? I hope not.

I wouldn't want to know what is going on around him and his life. Eventually, I'd just click on it. Gosh, how can I stop myself from doing that.

I know the best way is to remove him from my friends list on FB. Then, there will be a total cut off from him. I am heavy-hearted to do so. FB  is my only resource that I know how is he. Argh...

I know, I said I should stop knowing things about him and I am also stubborn to remove him from FB. Goodness, I wish I didn't have to choose.

I have another reason why I didn't want to do the latter is because it will be awkward if I were to add him again in future. No one knows what is going to happen in future. Well, I hope we can be friends. Looking at the situation now, it will not happen. Oh dear...

Guess I have a wiser option. That is to hide him on my News Feed in FB. I think I will prolly do that in order to not be emo anymore. Apparently, I did it few times but I deactivated it immediately because I still want to see it. Yes, I see and I am trying not to "stalk" him.

Hide, not to hide. Hide, not to hide. Hide, not to hide. Hide, no to Hide.

I think and guess is best to hide. Is going to be tough the first day of doing so because the anxious to know will be there. As time goes by, I will forget him entirely by doing so, I wish.

So, let's do it...

It's now or Never!!!

sobs sobs  ="(

Goodbye, once my dear baby.

No matter what, I know you exist and I do think of you.

I wish God will arrange you and I to be together that we have no choice but to be lovers.

A difficult decision.

A hard option.

A very emotional situation.

A feeling that kills.

A moment to shed some tears.

A sad Goodbye.

God Bless

Anger for what you did

I can't believe my eyes when I saw it. I didn't wanna believe it at all. I scrolled up and down for four times to make it clear if I did miss out your name. I didn't see your name on the list of friends who have added me on the chat list. You've deleted me. I always thought that you'd just blocked me. No, you deleted me from your chat list. Believe it or not, it is freaking true. Apparently, there are no differences of blocking and deleting me because both ways will show you as offline. It's the same actually. No matter what, you cut off all connections, wth. I feel one kind that you did that. Till that extend, oh Dear God. 

I am so extremely angry, that my anger can sacrifices one's life. Stab stab stab, dice dice dice, chop chop chop, blend blend blend, kill kill kill - Throw into the sea to feed sharks. Dead & Gone. Worry not, I am not that unconscious to KILL. It's only a way to perform my anger, verbally. 

I am seriously very angry so I told my friend about it. I wasn't upset for what you did. Only anger. I asked my friend why did you do that. She thinks because he feels guilty and regretting for treating me like crap. He knows what he is missing. Wow...it's nice to hear but I wouldn't believe that you will regret. Knowing you well, your egoness suffocates. Probably you will only regret when the final moment of your life arrives, when flashes of life before death appears in the air, till then you will realize you had missed. Well, I will never know but true enough, I don't want to know. All I know is I worth more and let you be worthless. 

I am wondering why I am so angry. Does it matters me? I asked myself. Actually, no. I am angry because I am thinking why did you ever do that? How can you be so mean and evil? What I did that I deserve being treated like that? For all I know, I did nothing. When I was with you, I treated you like my dearest baby on earth, cared for you so terribly much and do whatever that makes you happy. I certainly don't deserve it. Oh gosh, now I begin to have hatred towards you. But, I will not hate you because as what I always hear; you hate someone because you still love him. Therefore, I will not hate you. No matter what you did in the past, present and gonna do in future, I will not hate you. I will only DISLIKE YOU. I dislike you to the max, let's dislike you to the infinity and Beyond. 

At this moment, I'd dislike you much. I will not deny that I may still be emo about you in the future. However, that will not be a reason for me not moving on. I will move on and not need you one day because I deserve someone better that loves me and treat me well like a human. From now on, I know you're gone forever. You will not be my friend. It's not because I don't want to but you are the one who ain't wanna keep the friendship. You are treating me like as though I am vanished into thin air. I will forgive you. Forgiveness is the sweetest revenge. 

Chill pills are not enough, I need an elixir to forget. 

anymore

Do I don't Need You anymore?

Do I don't Want You anymore?

Do I don't LOVE You anymore?

Do I don't Like You anymore?

Do I don't Miss You anymore?

DO I HATE YOU???

Work!!! YES?? NO??

A yes or A no? Should I work or shouldn't I work? Omg...am I in dilemma? I am not sure if I wanna for as for my new sem will start in less than two weeks. I was really eager to work when I first started my sem break which was three weeks ago. But, there wasn't any vacancies yet. Moreover, I was thinking the chances of getting a job in the company was very thin as I only have a month of sem break. True enough I didn't receive any call from the company. Yea...the mood to work died off. Being lazy, fooling around really enjoying my holidays. Sometimes, too bored till I think of some unneccessary human being, thus making me moody. Alright, back to business. As I was planning for my final two weeks break and most of  my friends are back, I received a call if I can start work the following week and I told them I only have two weeks left. They said it is fine. Hmmm...this kept me pondering for days. I told them to give me some time to think about it. I was suppose to give them the answer by Friday but I didn't. I am still uncertain if I wanna work. I do wanna work to earn some extra cash but I do wanna go home to my parents place, to clear my messy study room and to catch up with friends who are back in town. Besides, I can only work for eight days to a maximum because there will be Orientation in Uni and perhaps I may need to settle some stuff. Sigh...torn between two!!! I have yet to reply them, I know is not good to delay but I really don't know the decision. I can't seem to choose one. Hmmm..I think I'll most probably reject the offer to work. Opps...Ade, you won't get mad with me, aren't you???

You vs. Car ---> BANG

Twice in less than two months. You met in an accident again. You got hit by car while riding your bike. How on earth did you got hit? Didn't you ride properly and safely? Can you like ride safely everytime. When I saw your post on FB, I was like wth, accident again. I wasn't worried because you were still able to scold the driver. Actually, I am not sure why weren't I worried for you. I didn't have the urge to wanting to know your situation. The only reaction was why were you alive. I mean I sounded evil, but probably it was a way that shows you no longer that important to me. I really wonder what, why and how; I felt like that...

I still remembered the first time you met in an accident. We were still together but no in a good term. We talk very much lesser, you ignored me and all sort of stuff that hurt my heart. You didn't even tell me you got hit by a taxi, all you did was just posting it on FB. I got shocked when I saw it and I texted you. I'd have the urge to call you, in fact I asked you if I could call you but you din't allow me to do so. You said you were fine. I was dead worried. So, fine and the next day when I was in Uni dealing with my assignment due and all, you texted me. Your whole body was aching. I was worried and my heart stopped beating for a moment. I rushed to see you as soo as possible. I drove like a mad woman, dangerously. I thought you are in bad condition at that moment. Till I reached you house, you looked just fine but you said your leg is in pain. I got a little annoyed that why  didn't you tell me earlier that just your leg was in pain and you're not dying. At first you sounded like you're dying in pain. WTH!!! You lied. You just wanted to see me but you used the wrong reason. Luckily, I didn't manage to avoid any car accidents. It was really close to one. Ish ish... =( But, your one hug made me forgave you. Haih...I fell into the trap again. Everything seems to be liked how we're so in loved. Argh...no matter what it is, we parted own ways after that, ='((

This time around you got hit by some random driver. You scolded the driver. You were mad with the driver.  But I was wondering was it your fault or the driver's. Knowing you and the way you drive, I doubt you ride properly. Anyway, careless!!! If you yourself doesn't love yourself and ride safely, you are not worth anyone's care. You are a human being that will get injured, You are not a metal robot that will never die! Take care fella. You met in accidents twice in less than two months. People said that it's all signals from God. Hahaha....

Take Care

When Away from My Blog

       Just realise that I haven't been updating my blog for approximately two weeks. I was away from any internet access and was also bogged up with an event. Thus, I didn't get a chance to blog. I wasn't nice not blogging because blogging is the only place where I journal all sort of feelings that was bothering me all these while. I feel so sad that when I was down and emo, I didn't have a chance to write it out.. I was just keeping everything to myself.. 

       I started my sem break three weeks ago and it is coming to an end soon. I went for KVLC for the first weekend immediately after my sem break started. I enjoyed the convention and it was always fun with all the positive energy around. It was fine but a little emo the week after I came back form the convention. Day by day, being more and more emo over him. I could not control but to cry. As I was staring at the picture we took together, I cried tremendously, I felt that it was such a waste that we are no longer together, a waste that I actually gave my heart to you and a waste that I am lost no where and could not find myself to return. How much I miss you, you will never know, I may only tear. I fell so miserable. All the time trying be act nothing in fron tof my parents. Dying late at night because of you. You never worth my tears but I just can't helped. The feeling for you have yet to die off at that moment. I feel so lonely back home. I missed so much the moment I feel lonely and had nothing to do. I filled my spare time with the TV, well it helped a lil nevertheless the feeling of missing you seems stronger. Can't imagine how I went through everyday like that, thank you mummy and daddy at least someone there at home that I hid the sadness and I looked happy. I am glad that I actually spent some time with them: going for movie, dim sum, dinners and etc. Then, the dawn I was donw to the very maximum, my bestie called all the way from Australia. We talked for almost four hours on many many topics not to be forgotten about him too. I felt much better after talking to her. Ah..thank you bestie!!! *hugs*

       Too much of free time makes me more emo due to spending the entire time thinking of him. I always wanting to keep myself busy. Here comes the busiest time since my sem break. I volunteered to help out in the Conference on Education Malaysia 2010 organised by LSC. There wasn't any updates till the very last minuted. I received an email that I and a partner have to design the nametag just a week before the conference. Barely a week, it was only five days. I had no computer back at home so I texted the organiser that I cannot design but I can help in other ways. So the partner designed it. Finally, Friday arrived and I went to help them. I thought the nametag was already nicely designed so all I have to do was to only insert the names and the categories. But, no!!! I had to ammend it and I spent the whole night editting the design and I only slept at 4am just for that. Saturday again we need to prepare things. I have to prepare 150 nametags, I spent the whole Saturday doing it, finished putting all the names and categories; preparing to print then the printer made a drama. Got no choice but someone helped me to print at home and all of us left the place around 11pm on that night with the cars full loaded. Guess what?? The nametags marathon didn't end just there. Continued doing it at Cititel n Sunday. All of us had different tasks to work on and it was really last minute including the nametags. We worked our very best till late night. That was the latest we spent in the hotel preparing for the conference the next day. Preparations all went well and conference day arrives on Monday. 

       As early as 5.30am I woke to wash up, make up and dress up!!! The ride came to pick me and headed to Cititel at 7am for the conference. Everyone was hooked up with the final preparation before guests arrive. Running here and there getting ready. There wasn't any time to tuck in a sip of coffee. Guests arrived, bla bla bla...conference went on and on till 6.30pm. Hungry and cold, didn't have time for breakfast, lunch and tea till  5pm, I finally have something for the stomach; the conference hall was freaking cold and my duty had to be in the hall for all the time. There was a jug of warm milk, I thinked I drank half a jug as I was hungry and cold! Conference ended and we still have to work. Shooing of guests, socialising, clearing, packing, fooling and camwhoring lasted till 11pm on Monday night. The longest we spent for an event. Had our dinner close to midnight, great food, awesome people and sharing of the conference. Tata...all went home to rest. 

         A Lasallian friend came from Singapore for the conference and she stayed a night here. So we decided to hang out with her the next day. She had a requirement that is she must eat A&W because there isn't any in Sg. Three of us agree to go to Mid Valley. Yes, I know...MV again!!! A movie as it was her first movie in a cinema in Msia. When In Rome was seriously hilarious yet romantic. We laughed out loud and I was personally dosed with the romantic side of the movie. Knowing me, indulging myself in romance at all times; movie, books, humans and etc. It was a great movie after all. I liked it. I like the actress, Kristen Bell. Oh ya..if I am given a chance I would like to go to Rome; Fontana de Amour. A fountain for love or romance. Then, we headed to A&W. Other friends joined us and we had a great joke there, laughing loudly in the restaurant. After all, I enjoyed my day. 

       Wednesday, I had a lunch appointment with my high school friends. I had banana leaf rice, awesome and I want more! Yum Cha session after that to catch up. Sadly, it was only a few of us. I hope that we can all meet up soon. I miss those time we had in high school. Friends from high school are much more closer to whom we know now. I love you, ladies.

time for bed *toddles*

xoxo

Moody Sunday Afternoon

I feel like crying all of a sudden. I have been very emo the past few days and I do not know why. I realise that I have changed. I use to be the noisy jolly gal with smiles on me most of the time unless I am seriously pissed. Nowadays, I became rather quiet. I realise how quiet I can be. I dislike talking when I don't feel like it. Or sometimes, when someone talks, I feel so irritated. I can want to sit there staring motionlessly and my mind flew away, far away hoping that I will be with him. Omg...What is wrong with me? Sigh...I wish things like this didn't happened and I am still the old me. I do not hate him for doing so and for once he came into my life. But I hate myself for still missing, thinking and needing him. I hate myself for still shedding tears because of him. I hate myself for not able to move on as quickly as I want. Argh... *tears can't seem to stop rolling down my cheeks*

How I wish that someone can give me what I want. All I want is just him. I need him. I miss him all the time. Give me him and I will be happy, I will not be down and I will not cry at least for sometime. I want him!!! Somehow I can't forget him after all we've been through, not a lot but at least there were something. The sound of missing him seems so loud. Do you now how much I want him? I really miss him... But, all I know that this will not happen. I know that I can't have him. People who know me will never give him to me because they love me and they will not want me to suffer. Some people said that they don't see the old me. They do not see the cheerful me. I still smile and laugh but deep inside, I am crying and dying. I ask them if they know where had the me that they use to know went. I myself too don't know where I went. I want to search and bring back the cheerful me back to reality. Bear with me and be patience as I will be back.

I know that I am very weak. I know people are laughing at me that how weak I am. I don't bother. I am a human and I have feelings. It's a relationship is not just a game. So how can I not be disturbed by it. If you ain't helping me or not cheering me up, stay away and don't act that you care for me.  Laugh all you want!!! But one day I will be able to be better because all I know that he is not the one. He is not oh yea Mr. Right, perfect man that I want. His egoness suffocates me till I can't breathe. Maybe God wants me to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when I finally meet the right person, I will be grateful for that gift. That applies to you too, Mr. Not Right...enjoy playing, fooling and breaking hearts now; but yea, one day you will know!!!

All the times we've been through. The laughter we shared. The hard time you had and I was there for you. Me too being there as a good listener. The times where you comfort me when you made me cry. The craziness we've did. The fun we had. The patience for each other. The love that ruled the world. The happiness from our smiles. How contented we were. You opened my heart and dared me to love. You made me feel that love will change everything and love rocks. All that the happy and sweet memories that I remembered and keep in a special place in my heart. It's all for me to cherish from the past and learn for the future. The bad times we had and the way you hurt me, I've not kept and I choose not to remember. Once again, I wish you are here with me. I wish that we could create more happiness together. I know that I couldn't leave without you. It's going to hurt when it heals too but it will be better in time. I miss you much.

PY was here

I had a short chat with PY today. It was a drive back from the tree planting program. Out of no where the topic came up and she asked "How are you?" Obviously, I answered "I am fine". Then she said she heard something about me and him. I said ya we are no longer together and I am not over it yet. In other words, I am not well as I looked. I smile but I am dying inside even now when I am writing this post.  I've been very emotional the past few days. So when she start the topic, I brokedown. Kind of embarassing but yea it's just PY. She is my senior and probably she asked me at the wrong time. I rarely share my feelings on this topic unless I am close to that person but so happen I was down and PY talk to me about it. As I was sharing, she tell me stuff that her relationship do have problems too. Hers do have ups and downs but the bf and her are mature enough to solve things unlike mine last time, he avoid things. How immature, huh? I know it have no turning back, I do not deserve to be treated the way he did, he ignored me and he is not worth. Yet I still miss him so terribly much and I need him till I am tearing so badly inside. I am deeply hurt. I told her that. I mean I didn't bad mouth him but just a touch of him cutting my calls last time. I do not wish to bad mouth him as it does no benefits me. After hearing all that, she said...deep down inside, you know that he is not the one! I replied...Yes, he is not the one but I still miss him now. She then said it's definitely hard to get over it. Take your time. But someone else told me that I am taking too long. So I presummed that I am taking too long too until PY asked me how long since I broke up, I answered a month. Wow, she paused a while...Oh my it's just a month, you definitely need more time. Take your time, she kept on repeating it. I was already weeping. Argh...hate myself that I still weeps when I talk about it. Then, I compared my relationship with another person's seven months long distance relationship. It's very much different that to just chat via msn or phone rather than seeing each other everyday. Him and I definitely developed deeper feelings because we meet everyday. PY said mine is very much deeper and real relationship as compared. Which means, I'm having a tougher time to heal. Am I really taking too long to get over it, she said No. But, there are people who said that and there was also someone who want me to get over it in two weeks. I can't possibly do that, I didn't do that. I am a failure??? I have no idea. I am just no strong enough  I guess. I am too emotional. A part from that, I told her that I wanna get away from the Lasallians and certainly the task given. Being away from everyone I knew like the Lasallians, friends, collegemates and even my family. However, I did not give up on the Lasallians because they were the ones helping me through and giving me hope that I am able to carry one. I was given a chance to facilitate one of the sessions for regionals, I was nervous but I still wanting to try. Then things happened and I really wanted to just leave but I hang on to the responsibility given and I am glad I didn't give it up. Anotther thing was I went back to LSC and I had a terribly tough time surviving through that weekend. It reminds me too much of him. Never knowing she too had that problem that she dislike going to some places because the Mr. BF is not there anymore. She understood how bad it was. Most of the time I sit alone and start stoning that led to being emo because I am thinking of him. When I keep quiet, I am thinking of him and my mind and soul flew away loittering in the air hoping that he will come back. PY's advise: take it as an experience so that you will be open to future relationships. You miss him now but one day you will be alright. Take your time to get over him, move on slowly and you'll be fine. Forget the bad times and cherish the memories. Deep down inside, you know he is not the one and you know what to do. I have faith in you and I know you can do it. A hug from her was comforting. Thank you very much PY.

Broken hearts will always heal but will never fully repaired ='(