Another Day to Thursday

One more day!

WHEEEEEEE...

Just ONE more Day to Thursday...

...and I can break free from studies for a month.

Yes, tell me my semester break is for a month.

I love it! I can't wait! I'm excited!

Wait, oh no.. Not yet, one more paper yea!

Don't get over excited and forget what I've studied.

Argh... Coughing nonstop is no helping at all.

It's so annoying to cough all the time, so noisy.

And now, I begin to sneeze.

Oh Gosh, please let me finish my exams before I get any worst.

Please... Please... Please...


P/S : He is sick too. Must we both be sick together?
Both need to take care & Get Well Soon!

Suckie Morning

What a bad start of the day. 

Received a bad news that my education loan has some complications. So then, I replied the email but have yet to receive any replies from them. I am very worried as this is my last issue of payment from the loan and also doing my last few papers for my degree. I hope all is well. 

No big deal? Oh no, it's a huge matter for me if I am not granted that issue of money for my tuition fees. Indeed, a very serious matter for me. 

Checked my bank account but no cash deposited too. 

So now I've gotta just wait for them and I'll drop my the Registry at my Uni to check on it after my last paper on Thursday. Gahhhh gotta revise too!!!

Bad news, cranky morning ---> another MAGNUM ice cream =) 

Vanilla Ice Cream with Coffee syrup ripple coated with Chocolate and Caramelised  Sugar

I recently have a "thing" for Magnum ice cream. I crave for it!!! But, it's very fattening. So, I better watch my diet!!! No more MAGNUM after this. Haha... I've tried both the new flavors, maybe not new buy it's new to me and I still prefer the Magnum Classic!!! Simple & Yummy.

Then, I came home and I saw this on FB.

Found something Fun. 

What's your DJ Name? 

Posted by Hitz.fm! My DJ Name is Black Magnum. 

Funny!!! Something that makes the suckie situation better. With some sillyness and an ice cream. 

Till then, get some things done and back to books! 

有 你 在 苦 也 是 甜

Opps, I am not a person who knows how to read and write Chinese. But I find this meaningful. 

有 你 在 苦 也 是 甜 - This basically means "Bitter moments are Sweet too whenever there is YOU". 

I or we both understand Cantonese so I (We) understand this phrase very much. I don't know how to define it precisely but it roughly means every bitter moments become sweet memories as long as you are here. I can truly feel that because my sorrows became easier and life became less harder when he is here to go through every moment of it with me. He bring happiness to me. Rather strong words to be used but he is very significant to me at this point in life. 

I will to tell him one day that he means a lot to me. Oh well, not that I dare not. I am just waiting for the right time. We talk about every thing, we are very true to each other. We promise to be TRUTHFUL to each other.

This is totally how I feel every time being with him! 

分 分 钟 需 要 你

♥ 有 你 在 苦 也 是 甜 ♥

Countdown to Thursday, I CAN'T WAIT!

Hahahaha... Was supposed to revise but I went for a nap. Should be a short one but I slept for a lil longer than an hour. 

Now, I am surfing the net while waiting for dinner time. I should really start revising after dinner. At least read up the ONE and ONLY chapter for the theory question and practice other calculation questions the next day. 

I am counting down each day and I can't wait for the last paper to end. Apparently when exams begun, I was waiting for the last day. This is because I can only see him after my exams. He is not allowing me to meet him even for dinner just because he wants me to revise. Argh, frustration max because I miss him a lot. I told him yesterday and he said few more days, so "HANG IN THERE"! I supposed I don't have a choice till this Thursday. 

Apart from him, I can't wait too is because I really want a break from books. This semester is really hectic since it started. I looked so tensed even it was only Week 2 of the semester. I looked tensed? I felt even more stressful than I looked. Therefore, I can't wait till I can really sit down and relax. not thinking about studies, assignments and tasks. I want a mini getaway too. Best if it's a SWEET Escape with him!!! :-)

The last paper form this semester in three (3) days. I should prepare for this paper well and grant me a good ending for the semester at a high. MA 3 on Thursday, please be kind to me. With lots of love from me, I can't wait for the exam to be completed.  

Lazy Sunday to Monday

Lazy Sunday!!!

          I've planned to transfer all the photos taken from the camera to my computer but I did not do so till the end of the day. I lazed around with family, slacking and going out for lunch. That's all I did yesterday. So, whatever that was planned to be done are not done. Delaying it, anyway nothing important. Just photos of trips, outings and events Since September. Moreover, I rarely upload 'em on FB or any social networks. Haha, I can store that many pictures because the memory card has ample capacity. Woots! 

Lazzzyyyyy Mondayyyy???

          Another day but the day has not ended so I still have the chance to do what I've planned to. Well, I'd some which was clearing the mess of bags from traveling and ironing all my clothes. At least two long OVER-DUED mission completed. Next, I am supposed to revise for my last paper for this semester. The exam is on Thursday. I am counting down the days till exams are finally over so that I can see him and enjoy my holidays. Hmmm.. I better start revising in a bit. 

The Alphabet "B"

What does the alphabet "B" represents? 

It carries many initials in many circumstances. 

But to me and especially in a relationship of two people, the alphabet "B" solely means Baby. 

It all depends on how the couple(s) spells Baby. Neither Bii, B, Bee nor rarely By. It doesn't matter hot to spell but it all are pronounced the same way and means the same. It means the most adored person, it means Baby. Baby says it all and am sure the meaning of Baby is very clear regardless on English Dictionary or Urban Dictionary. It's up to an individual to adopt the meaning. 

If I am not mistaken, I used to spelled it Bii (opps, I found out another not so good meaning of it) when I used it for my ex, well he calls it in full as in Baby or mostly another cute love name, Darling. Oh well now it's not the time to talk about the Ex, it's about the current interest. 

Remember my previous post that I had a typo of "B". So he thought I was calling him  "B" then I asked if he was fine with it and he said he don't know. Like obviously, I want to have a cute nickname for him because I am into him. Then again, he is not really my boyfriend so I am uncertain to use that on him and I am a little skeptical if he actually minds. So, I tried calling him "B" and guess what?! He answered 'yea...' and I was like *love lingers around me*. From then on, I called him "B". Let me try calling him face-to-face one day! 

Haha I know you can call me naive but when you like someone, you indulge in them. I admit I am very much attached to him although we are not boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. Nonetheless, we enjoys each others company a lot more that we should have. Yes, very complicated. I can't define us anymore, I am just going with the flow. I maybe caught one day playing with "fire" but mean time I am doing what that makes me happy most. 

Additionally to the "B" thing, I once used to call him Hubby when I message him. Oh there was a silly promise behind this calling for him. All because he promised to marry me is he migrates in order to give me a PR too since we both have a wish to live abroad. Then, one day I just called Hubby and he answered. Wow, my first time calling another person Hubby because I am not even married. That was all through texting. Then came last Saturday during the race, I finally did call him Hubby. He seemed cool with it an answered me every time like normal. 

Now, what does he calls me? No, he don't calls me anything even my real name he don't. I wonder. He begins conversation just like that. LOL! He is a very "chinaman" mentality kinda guy. I even made him to begin using "Hugs". 

     "B"      

The Wait for You but Sigh!

I am wanting to see him so badly. For the whole entire week, I've been wanting to see him but he didn't allow since I have having my final examinations for this semester. Finally, I thought the wait would be paid off by us meeting for dinner today. SIGH!!! It was raining and he didn't realized that it past 7 o'clock. He left office and it was a usual thing to be caught in the heavy traffic here plus it was raining. So, dinner plan was being called off. 

I was waiting but he didn't text me earlier to tell me that he can't make it. I hate last minute let down. Well, he always said that he didn't promise but isn't it an assurance already when you said dinner?! Yea, tell me about it. I was very disappointed. However, what calm me from being upset was he said the first thing he did off work was giving me a call. Yes, just that simple and I'm all right again. 

Then, we said okay supper aka dessert. my favourite thing to do. He had a late dinner but I was still expecting to see him. No news from him till quite late and he told me it's late to meet already. I immediately got so sad and angry because I won't be able to see him this week. I ignored his texts after that to cool down because I don't wanna be rebellious throwing tantrums to him. Although he knew that I was really upset.

Indeed, it's that important for me to see him. I always wanna see him, he is someone who makes me happy most of the time but sad as well. I am in an undesirable situation, a situation that I'm at fault because he is not single. SIGH max!!! Nonetheless we both enjoy each others' company. 

Then again, a mini tranquilizer or maybe it was just myself who think too much. We were kept on texting after he told me we could not meet, this is obviously when I cooled down. He wasn't really attending to the messages, so I asked him if he is busy. 

Me : You "sigh" what?
Me : B busy now?
Me : *U

Him : U replacing?
Him : Packing stuff

Me : U replacing B, no? 

Him : Just asking, see no typo also.

Me : Haha you didn't noticed the typo or you're fine with me calling B

Him : I don't know

Oooo what kinda meaning is that. What was he thinking? Is he really all right with me calling him B? B is a norm how we normally call our significant other which means Baby. I wonder if his own girlfriend calls him some lovey dovey names?! I do, actually and he is all fine with it. *tsk tsk* Oh well, just let it be. Just go with the flow, perhaps. 

Till then, I'm off to bed since it rained since evening. The best to sleep! I hope to see him real soon! :/ 

The picture says it ALL! 

Finals for this Sem starting in 8 hours

It's exactly 8 hours to my first final exam paper for this semester. Burning the midnight oil as usual. 

Dear Accounting Theory,

Please be kind to me. Lecturer didn't give any tips or ticker on how the questions will be examined. She just broadly mentioned the chapters which will be tested. I barely revised half because for one chapter alone took me five hours. Imagine all of it. Plus, I could barely understand what were the book trying to say. Sigh, I just gotta write what I could later. So, I beg you please be kind. 

Sincerely,

Me. 

Back to the book! 

Three papers this week and one more next Thursday.

An Ice Cream to Cheer =)

I wonder why am I so emotional? 

He or we did nothing! But, I MISS HIM terribly MUCH!!! :'( 

Nothing happened between both of us except the wonderful moments of bliss last night. It could be the memories that is making me emotional and the sad truth that he has a girlfriend. I am just thinking of telling him and what's the next step of our complicated friendship. Every time I think about it, I tear. Why? I wonder... 

This is not helping on what I am reading for my exam tomorrow. Plus, I don't seemed to understand what I read about Accounting Theory. 

I just teared again when people I told about my situation talked about it. Let me tell them to take a break, just so I can stop the tears running down my cheeks and to concentrate on my revision. 

At a Magnum ice cream hoping it could cheer me up, well it's not doing it part at the moment though... 

Let's also hope that I'll fine fine soon. At least less emotional. 

A HUG to myself!!! 

I'm into You!

Yesterday or last night gave me great memories with friends and especially him. We went for a 10 km race together and he was the one who pushes me to complete it and if it was not because of him, I will not participate the race. 

After last night, he became more significant to me. Memories with him and the affection for him is deeper since. At this time, I should admit that I think I am really into him but all I know is he can't be with me. The reason because he has a girlfriend. 

I know that it is so not right but I can't stop myself from liking someone, falling for him deeper and deeper. This three months, he is here near me for work. It's only the first two weeks, I met him a couple of times and every time I meet him was a bliss. Obviously, last night means a lot to me. 

Owh, that 10 km race. I'm so tired now and I have no mood to study for my finals beginning tomorrow. I am so dead. I can't concentrate due to tiredness and thinking of him. Nonetheless, I don't have a choice. I need to revise. I will definitely meet him after 3 papers this week. I can't wait. 

I'm so into you, yes you! The you that I ran my first race with. You're very significant to me. 

Maybe the Happy Ending is Just Moving On

Maybe what is said is absolutely right. A happy ending doesn't include a guy and happy ending is just MOVING ON! 

If it's as easier said than done, I have long move on. Although "actions speak louder than words" and "where there's a will, there's a way", I am very heavy hearted to just move on from my very much unavailable new interest. 

I don't want to LET GO! 

I don't want to MOVE ON! 

I don't want to LOSE HIM! 

(Well, I hope he feels the same too. I know since he is unavailable then he wouldn't feel the same but there were times that he acted this way too. Often when I said I wanna leave him, he won't allow me to do so. He holds me back!) 

But, there is nothing I could do. I will settle it one day. Perhaps the day when I have extraordinary courage to do so. Meanwhile, I shall just go with the flow?! Sounds so wrong but I am so torn between chasing for what I want in life maybe not for now but for the future or let go of this person for the rest of my life. 

I don't know what I am doing is right or wrong! 

Relationships are complicated!

Chili Red No More

Oh Sigh, I removed my nail polish on my fingernails. After a night, I woke up finding 'em all ruined  by me. No sure how but was all looking horrible with lines and thumbprints and so on. Then, re-painted again hoping it will look good but I don't have the mood. Then newly painted nails look all right but I don't feel it's nice and I decided to remove all of it. Leaving my nails bare and colorless again. Chili Red No More. Not quite easy to remove though because the nail polish applied was too thick. Oh well, it's all right. I supposed healthy nails i.e. no-chipping nails are way nicer than colored nails?! Haha... Or perhaps, I'll visit the nail parlour soon for a retreat. That will be after exams. Cheerio... 

Red & Blue Nails

I finally painted my nails... 

It's been two long years since I last did nail polish... 

Fingernails are Chili Red whereas Toenails are Navy Blue! 

One fine day, I had the urge to do something to my nails because when I stared at it, it looked so naked, bare and boring! I love colors and always wanted to go for manicures and pedicures but the package is often expensive and I am a person who needs to do house chores, therefore I find it a waste of money. So, I ended up painting my own. No where near perfect but at least some colors on it. As long as I am happy. 

I can't deny that I am a lil quite a perfectionist. I hate seeing the slightest scratch after painting my nails and I won't do anything for quite sometime. Unfortunately, the nail polish didn't dry entirely and I started ruining it. Then, I'll need to clean it and paint again. Sigh, only one finger's nail got ruined. I'm not gonna touch the nail polish remover or it will ruin all ten nails. Haha... perfectionist failed at the moment! LOL! 

Why haven't I paint my nails in two years? 

Kindly allow me to story... And I suddenly got really sad... 

Back in 2010, it was just like now. I like painting nails. That was before I broke up with my first love. I put nail polish on and off as and when i like. Then when I broke up, I became very depressed. So, I started having nail polish all the time. I change nail colors every two to three days and never left it naked with no paint on 'em. Every time I am upset, I paint my nails to new colors. Later, my nails start chipping. The constant nail polish on my nails spoilt my nails. My nails chipped terribly layer by layer and became so fragile. That's a disaster to my nails.

In 2011 till now, I didn't dare pain my nails because it has all fully recovered from chipping. It took a year plus... Yet again, I just applied nail polish. This time is purely for fun not because I am upset over my ex. I should be done with him but I have a new interest that cause me heartache as well. SIGH! Sorry, side track a lil. Anyway, I should get new nail polish, my nails chipped maybe because the current polishes that I am having are some lousy and cheap brand. I should get better ones. let me shop for nail colors one day. They are rather costly thought, probably I won't be able to own many colors then. Or collect colors at a slower pace because I used to buy few colors at one go. Yay! 

I love colored NAILS!!! 

=)