Semester 3 of 2012

A month past of semester break had officially ended. The new semester commenced only few days but I feel exhausted as I am attending few classes to try out which subject that I want to take for this semester. Is is a short semester this year-end with many public holidays. Definitely going to a hectic semester but considering the best subject for myself. 

Besides, uni-mates too creating a hassle as they too deciding what subjects to be taken and every one says something different about the subject regarding which is easier, which is not. Some are followers when one person plans the schedule and the other follows. I do have friends like that. 

Hence, every time when there is a break between classes, we discuss. Till I have no time to eat. Just like today I only had a cereal bar for the day till I reach home at five in the evening. I was so bogged up with the mess of which subject for this semester. I was really hungry since I woke up at 6am and planned to have breakfast but didn't make it. 

Is this semester gonna suck me up like last semester? 

I hope not. Because last semester's stress begun in the second week. *phew* Done! 

As far as I need to concentrate on my studies, I want to enjoy the journey of uni life too. 

Till then, print some notes and off to bed. 

P/S: I should be seeing him for dinner tomorrow. I hope that it's really happening and I can't wait to see him. 

He is out since dinner today, I don't know who he went out with but most probably the gf. I may sound jealous but as usual I am waiting for his texts and Goodnight HUGS! 

*woots* Speaking of the devil, he just texted me. 

I'm (We're) Upset Over Meeting Up and Ranks in Life

I'm upset,

You're upset,

We're both upset. 

It is getting so tensed up. Can we not discuss the topic anymore? 

Because you're sounding like you're angry rather than you're upset. 

I don't want to cry. 

I don't want to to cry myself to sleep tonight. 

I don't want to cry because of you. 

It hurts more than any other things.

Because when I cry,

I tend to have negative thoughts about you and I. 

I get tired,

I get angry,

I get upset, 

It makes me feel so down when bad things happen between us. 

I wonder how do you feel at times. 

But, today I know I made you upset as well. 

What actually happened? 

It started off with me telling him that I am unhappy about him. The case was, I bought a voucher to diner at some restaurant which he wanted to go as well. I told him about it more or less about a month but he had yet to find the time to go with me. Why am I pressuring him it's because there is a due date to this voucher which is by the end of November. Only a few day left and I know many people bought this voucher too, and it's a first come first serve basis so I am not sure if we'll get a chance when we walk-in. So, I really wanna go early and he knows it. 

He is working from Mondays to Saturdays, so basically only Sundays that he is free and he has got many people to meet. On week nights, I rarely have a chance to meet him because he has dinner plans except with me. I may sound jealous but I am really wanting to meet him all the time. So, it's a Sunday today. I really did hope that we could use the voucher today as I know it is very hard to catch him on weekdays and only four days left before it ends. 

I placed hope, it crashed because he was out with his brother whole day then needed rest. I am all right with that. But, what sadden me was the feeling if he is keen on meeting me. I always doubt on that matter because he meets every other people except me. Also, it's me who's the one who always calls him wanting to meet him. I get tired when I held hope to meet him and in the end all I get was reasons of other plans. 

I asked him if he is keen on going for the meal, if he is not then don't hesitate to tell me. But, he didn't give me an answer to that question. Skipped that. Then, I told him what my aunt said to me. "If a guy don't want to meet you, he will give many reasons just to avoid you". The thought of it hit my heart, it hurts when I think that if he don't want to meet me. He asked me in return "Why wouldn't I want to meet you"? I can't answer that because I was already upset, but coming to think of it now he do actually want to meet me badly at times. 

I further told him that I felt like I am nobody to him and he is often forced to meet me. I was upset. His replies begun to be a lil different so I asked if he is angry but no, he is upset too. He is upset that he want to meet ME, brother, the gf and friends but, I do not have much time. Saw that, my name comes before her. Anyway, that's not the point. I replied saying that I'm speechless and I don't know what to do as well. I lose to all on the list so I'll just shut up, I said. 

The tense begins! He prompt me these questions.

Why? 

Why are you ranking? 

Why do you give yourself ranking and others as well?

Does it really matter? 

My emotions fall deep under, I feel so upset at the point of crying. I don't know why did I ranked. Perhaps, it really matters to me. As I knew him only for the past one year as compared to others, so of course the rest are more important to him. 

He sounded more angry. Insisting that he don't rank. Maybe an exception that is Family above all. I am all fine with that because who doesn't put family first. I am sad, I do ranked myself lower compared to the rest, I was truthful. He still don't get why do I have to rank. Me too, I myself don't know too and I apologized because I felt that way. Again he asked if it is important.

I don't know. I seriously don't know but it feels that way. I think it is because I am so attached to you. "Attached" may not be the right word but I did want to tell him so that he knows I am very much attached to him. 

He then went to bed and seriously not knowing why do it really matter to me. Something for us to ponder on, I supposed. But, often enough he don't think about it. And when we meet up, we seemed like a very happy, loving couple actually we are not in a relationship. 

No "HUGS" at the end of the day for me! 

Sigh... 

I asked for it? 

Add ons: To me, there is an exception to placing family first then it will be my loved one. As in putting my boyfriend after family. But, to him this is not the case. He once told me that he place career, friends and many more before the girlfriend. I want to be the one he place after his family. Obviously I want to be the one rank the first to him. I want to be him most important person in his life. I admit, he is very important to me and I cannot deny that I am very attached to him. Sigh... 

Twenty First of November

Just a random post on a Wednesday night. 

All because I am bored. 

Nonetheless, I find the date cute.

21-11-12

All the 1(s) are between the two 2(s).

[ 2 1 11 1 2 ]

So random, So SILLY Me. 

I am so bored, always waiting for him to text me.

Not an emo day, YAY!

A very FULL-Filling day because I ate a lot.

Dinner was Fruit Rojak and had DURIANS awhile later. 

Was quite bloated, thank goodness there is Green Tea helping me to feel better.  

Owh, Durians was "Musang King"!

RM50 for 2.

Yes, read it right. Only TWO Durians. 

First one was bad, not nice. Tasteless.  

Second and Last tasted good but more durian-ish will be awesome. 

Erm, I still have a huge bowl of Sea-Coconut and Longan dessert in the fridge. 

My favourite, mum boiled. Thank you!

But, I think I will keep it for tomorrow. 

Feeling quite POSITIVE. 

Good Mood! 

My current Cover Photo on FB - 21.11.12

Note to SELF - Confidence 

Alright, got to go. Mum and Dad are sleeping.

I will have the TV all mine! 

I am waiting for you, B.  

I MISS YOU. 

P/s: Just before I "Publish" this, he texted me! *smiles*

What A Long Tiring Day!

3 minutes to the end of a long tiring day! 

Wow.. I got a shocked as the fireworks blasted. 

It's Deepavali tomorrow, the festival of lights for the Indians. 

Happy celebrating but can people please warn me before blasting the fireworks? 

I'm sitting alone with the TV on at home.

I was so shocked by the loud blast and it wasn't even 12 am yet. 

12.11.12

Long tiring day begun at 7.30 am this morning with rushing to meet my friend who came back from Korea but going back to Kuching. Met her for breakfast, we wanted to have Banana Leaf rice for breakie. I know it was kinda early for that but we were craving for Malaysian food. Didn't managed to fulfill our craving because it was too early, so we had Roti Canai instead. Girls and chit-chatting never failed to do so. Then, we went for Mille Crepe, just a quick one and I dropped her off at the LRT station worrying that she will be late. Phew, plan went well that she didn't missed any of her transportation back home. She bought me a souvenir from Korea, an eye brow pencil which I wanted. I went shopping for that with her before she left to Korea. Thanks a bunch for being so thoughtful! *hugs* Owh, plus Pepero too. 

Whole morning spending time with her was awesome because she came over for 18 days and travelled 3 countries yet she managed to slot in some time to meet up with me after about two years! Later, was grandmother's appointment to the neurologist for the CT Scan report. Haha,I took a nap before than and went to the hospital at 1.45pm. Waited for registration, met the doctor, payment and medicine prescription till 4 pm! GOODNESS, it took so long. Gah...no choice. As usual me being annoyed with grandmother as I need to speak very loud to her as she has hearing problems but it's very loud and everyone could hea, I dislike because it seemed like I am very rude. Sorry! 

Rested awhileat Grandmother + Aunties' place, my usual comfort zone. Left home to head back home to parents at 5 pm but I only reach at 7 plus because my car tyre punctured along the highway. I was so scared as I was alone along the highway, surprisingly I was calm enough to make calls for help. Waited again for help. Called the brother and thank god he almost off work by then. It started raining and got heavier. A passer by and a highway personnel stopped to offer help but I dare not scroll down the window because everyone seemed scary to me that moment. I called the AAM for help and the agreed to send a mechanic within 45 minutes to an hour. But, they called later to cancel it because they said they will take a long time. GRRR, I got mad. I am sure to remove the AAM logo on my car!!! Brother came and called the highway personnel, waited again. finally they came but it was too dangerous to change my tyre as many cars and the rain was quite heavy. He called for help from his colleagues but colleagues with a truck and some cones to ease the fast moving traffic. Bravo, got it done. 

Came back to my area tog et the punctured tyre fixed but found out nothing could be done as the tyre was torn, can't patch it back. So, new tyre which cost a sum. Also found out my other two tyres are about time too. Tomorrow, I'll need to get new ones which will cost a dough. Gosh... Money matters every where. SIGH! T_T

Finally home for dinner, mother cooked delicious dinner as always mum's cook is always the best. Yummy!!! Till now, I was slacking and just bathe. 

I called it a day. 

A long tiring day came to an end...

Why MIA?

Missing? 

Not updating my blog?

Yea, indeed because I weren't in the mood at all. 

Not in the mood to write. 

Because I don't want to recall what happened. 

Him and I

We

T_T

I had an emotional breakdown! 

Of course it was relating him!

Not gonna elaborate more.

Maybe one day. I will story it. 

We are back to normal now. 

We talk like we used to. 

Him - The who made me cry is also the person who makes things right. The person who makes me feel good all the time, the one who makes me happy. The tranquilizer, the sugar, the CLOWN! The significant one at this point of time in my life. 

Another Day to Thursday

One more day!

WHEEEEEEE...

Just ONE more Day to Thursday...

...and I can break free from studies for a month.

Yes, tell me my semester break is for a month.

I love it! I can't wait! I'm excited!

Wait, oh no.. Not yet, one more paper yea!

Don't get over excited and forget what I've studied.

Argh... Coughing nonstop is no helping at all.

It's so annoying to cough all the time, so noisy.

And now, I begin to sneeze.

Oh Gosh, please let me finish my exams before I get any worst.

Please... Please... Please...


P/S : He is sick too. Must we both be sick together?
Both need to take care & Get Well Soon!

Suckie Morning

What a bad start of the day. 

Received a bad news that my education loan has some complications. So then, I replied the email but have yet to receive any replies from them. I am very worried as this is my last issue of payment from the loan and also doing my last few papers for my degree. I hope all is well. 

No big deal? Oh no, it's a huge matter for me if I am not granted that issue of money for my tuition fees. Indeed, a very serious matter for me. 

Checked my bank account but no cash deposited too. 

So now I've gotta just wait for them and I'll drop my the Registry at my Uni to check on it after my last paper on Thursday. Gahhhh gotta revise too!!!

Bad news, cranky morning ---> another MAGNUM ice cream =) 

Vanilla Ice Cream with Coffee syrup ripple coated with Chocolate and Caramelised  Sugar

I recently have a "thing" for Magnum ice cream. I crave for it!!! But, it's very fattening. So, I better watch my diet!!! No more MAGNUM after this. Haha... I've tried both the new flavors, maybe not new buy it's new to me and I still prefer the Magnum Classic!!! Simple & Yummy.

Then, I came home and I saw this on FB.

Found something Fun. 

What's your DJ Name? 

Posted by Hitz.fm! My DJ Name is Black Magnum. 

Funny!!! Something that makes the suckie situation better. With some sillyness and an ice cream. 

Till then, get some things done and back to books! 

有 你 在 苦 也 是 甜

Opps, I am not a person who knows how to read and write Chinese. But I find this meaningful. 

有 你 在 苦 也 是 甜 - This basically means "Bitter moments are Sweet too whenever there is YOU". 

I or we both understand Cantonese so I (We) understand this phrase very much. I don't know how to define it precisely but it roughly means every bitter moments become sweet memories as long as you are here. I can truly feel that because my sorrows became easier and life became less harder when he is here to go through every moment of it with me. He bring happiness to me. Rather strong words to be used but he is very significant to me at this point in life. 

I will to tell him one day that he means a lot to me. Oh well, not that I dare not. I am just waiting for the right time. We talk about every thing, we are very true to each other. We promise to be TRUTHFUL to each other.

This is totally how I feel every time being with him! 

分 分 钟 需 要 你

♥ 有 你 在 苦 也 是 甜 ♥

Countdown to Thursday, I CAN'T WAIT!

Hahahaha... Was supposed to revise but I went for a nap. Should be a short one but I slept for a lil longer than an hour. 

Now, I am surfing the net while waiting for dinner time. I should really start revising after dinner. At least read up the ONE and ONLY chapter for the theory question and practice other calculation questions the next day. 

I am counting down each day and I can't wait for the last paper to end. Apparently when exams begun, I was waiting for the last day. This is because I can only see him after my exams. He is not allowing me to meet him even for dinner just because he wants me to revise. Argh, frustration max because I miss him a lot. I told him yesterday and he said few more days, so "HANG IN THERE"! I supposed I don't have a choice till this Thursday. 

Apart from him, I can't wait too is because I really want a break from books. This semester is really hectic since it started. I looked so tensed even it was only Week 2 of the semester. I looked tensed? I felt even more stressful than I looked. Therefore, I can't wait till I can really sit down and relax. not thinking about studies, assignments and tasks. I want a mini getaway too. Best if it's a SWEET Escape with him!!! :-)

The last paper form this semester in three (3) days. I should prepare for this paper well and grant me a good ending for the semester at a high. MA 3 on Thursday, please be kind to me. With lots of love from me, I can't wait for the exam to be completed.  

Lazy Sunday to Monday

Lazy Sunday!!!

          I've planned to transfer all the photos taken from the camera to my computer but I did not do so till the end of the day. I lazed around with family, slacking and going out for lunch. That's all I did yesterday. So, whatever that was planned to be done are not done. Delaying it, anyway nothing important. Just photos of trips, outings and events Since September. Moreover, I rarely upload 'em on FB or any social networks. Haha, I can store that many pictures because the memory card has ample capacity. Woots! 

Lazzzyyyyy Mondayyyy???

          Another day but the day has not ended so I still have the chance to do what I've planned to. Well, I'd some which was clearing the mess of bags from traveling and ironing all my clothes. At least two long OVER-DUED mission completed. Next, I am supposed to revise for my last paper for this semester. The exam is on Thursday. I am counting down the days till exams are finally over so that I can see him and enjoy my holidays. Hmmm.. I better start revising in a bit. 

The Alphabet "B"

What does the alphabet "B" represents? 

It carries many initials in many circumstances. 

But to me and especially in a relationship of two people, the alphabet "B" solely means Baby. 

It all depends on how the couple(s) spells Baby. Neither Bii, B, Bee nor rarely By. It doesn't matter hot to spell but it all are pronounced the same way and means the same. It means the most adored person, it means Baby. Baby says it all and am sure the meaning of Baby is very clear regardless on English Dictionary or Urban Dictionary. It's up to an individual to adopt the meaning. 

If I am not mistaken, I used to spelled it Bii (opps, I found out another not so good meaning of it) when I used it for my ex, well he calls it in full as in Baby or mostly another cute love name, Darling. Oh well now it's not the time to talk about the Ex, it's about the current interest. 

Remember my previous post that I had a typo of "B". So he thought I was calling him  "B" then I asked if he was fine with it and he said he don't know. Like obviously, I want to have a cute nickname for him because I am into him. Then again, he is not really my boyfriend so I am uncertain to use that on him and I am a little skeptical if he actually minds. So, I tried calling him "B" and guess what?! He answered 'yea...' and I was like *love lingers around me*. From then on, I called him "B". Let me try calling him face-to-face one day! 

Haha I know you can call me naive but when you like someone, you indulge in them. I admit I am very much attached to him although we are not boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. Nonetheless, we enjoys each others company a lot more that we should have. Yes, very complicated. I can't define us anymore, I am just going with the flow. I maybe caught one day playing with "fire" but mean time I am doing what that makes me happy most. 

Additionally to the "B" thing, I once used to call him Hubby when I message him. Oh there was a silly promise behind this calling for him. All because he promised to marry me is he migrates in order to give me a PR too since we both have a wish to live abroad. Then, one day I just called Hubby and he answered. Wow, my first time calling another person Hubby because I am not even married. That was all through texting. Then came last Saturday during the race, I finally did call him Hubby. He seemed cool with it an answered me every time like normal. 

Now, what does he calls me? No, he don't calls me anything even my real name he don't. I wonder. He begins conversation just like that. LOL! He is a very "chinaman" mentality kinda guy. I even made him to begin using "Hugs". 

     "B"      

The Wait for You but Sigh!

I am wanting to see him so badly. For the whole entire week, I've been wanting to see him but he didn't allow since I have having my final examinations for this semester. Finally, I thought the wait would be paid off by us meeting for dinner today. SIGH!!! It was raining and he didn't realized that it past 7 o'clock. He left office and it was a usual thing to be caught in the heavy traffic here plus it was raining. So, dinner plan was being called off. 

I was waiting but he didn't text me earlier to tell me that he can't make it. I hate last minute let down. Well, he always said that he didn't promise but isn't it an assurance already when you said dinner?! Yea, tell me about it. I was very disappointed. However, what calm me from being upset was he said the first thing he did off work was giving me a call. Yes, just that simple and I'm all right again. 

Then, we said okay supper aka dessert. my favourite thing to do. He had a late dinner but I was still expecting to see him. No news from him till quite late and he told me it's late to meet already. I immediately got so sad and angry because I won't be able to see him this week. I ignored his texts after that to cool down because I don't wanna be rebellious throwing tantrums to him. Although he knew that I was really upset.

Indeed, it's that important for me to see him. I always wanna see him, he is someone who makes me happy most of the time but sad as well. I am in an undesirable situation, a situation that I'm at fault because he is not single. SIGH max!!! Nonetheless we both enjoy each others' company. 

Then again, a mini tranquilizer or maybe it was just myself who think too much. We were kept on texting after he told me we could not meet, this is obviously when I cooled down. He wasn't really attending to the messages, so I asked him if he is busy. 

Me : You "sigh" what?
Me : B busy now?
Me : *U

Him : U replacing?
Him : Packing stuff

Me : U replacing B, no? 

Him : Just asking, see no typo also.

Me : Haha you didn't noticed the typo or you're fine with me calling B

Him : I don't know

Oooo what kinda meaning is that. What was he thinking? Is he really all right with me calling him B? B is a norm how we normally call our significant other which means Baby. I wonder if his own girlfriend calls him some lovey dovey names?! I do, actually and he is all fine with it. *tsk tsk* Oh well, just let it be. Just go with the flow, perhaps. 

Till then, I'm off to bed since it rained since evening. The best to sleep! I hope to see him real soon! :/ 

The picture says it ALL! 

Finals for this Sem starting in 8 hours

It's exactly 8 hours to my first final exam paper for this semester. Burning the midnight oil as usual. 

Dear Accounting Theory,

Please be kind to me. Lecturer didn't give any tips or ticker on how the questions will be examined. She just broadly mentioned the chapters which will be tested. I barely revised half because for one chapter alone took me five hours. Imagine all of it. Plus, I could barely understand what were the book trying to say. Sigh, I just gotta write what I could later. So, I beg you please be kind. 

Sincerely,

Me. 

Back to the book! 

Three papers this week and one more next Thursday.

An Ice Cream to Cheer =)

I wonder why am I so emotional? 

He or we did nothing! But, I MISS HIM terribly MUCH!!! :'( 

Nothing happened between both of us except the wonderful moments of bliss last night. It could be the memories that is making me emotional and the sad truth that he has a girlfriend. I am just thinking of telling him and what's the next step of our complicated friendship. Every time I think about it, I tear. Why? I wonder... 

This is not helping on what I am reading for my exam tomorrow. Plus, I don't seemed to understand what I read about Accounting Theory. 

I just teared again when people I told about my situation talked about it. Let me tell them to take a break, just so I can stop the tears running down my cheeks and to concentrate on my revision. 

At a Magnum ice cream hoping it could cheer me up, well it's not doing it part at the moment though... 

Let's also hope that I'll fine fine soon. At least less emotional. 

A HUG to myself!!! 

I'm into You!

Yesterday or last night gave me great memories with friends and especially him. We went for a 10 km race together and he was the one who pushes me to complete it and if it was not because of him, I will not participate the race. 

After last night, he became more significant to me. Memories with him and the affection for him is deeper since. At this time, I should admit that I think I am really into him but all I know is he can't be with me. The reason because he has a girlfriend. 

I know that it is so not right but I can't stop myself from liking someone, falling for him deeper and deeper. This three months, he is here near me for work. It's only the first two weeks, I met him a couple of times and every time I meet him was a bliss. Obviously, last night means a lot to me. 

Owh, that 10 km race. I'm so tired now and I have no mood to study for my finals beginning tomorrow. I am so dead. I can't concentrate due to tiredness and thinking of him. Nonetheless, I don't have a choice. I need to revise. I will definitely meet him after 3 papers this week. I can't wait. 

I'm so into you, yes you! The you that I ran my first race with. You're very significant to me. 

Maybe the Happy Ending is Just Moving On

Maybe what is said is absolutely right. A happy ending doesn't include a guy and happy ending is just MOVING ON! 

If it's as easier said than done, I have long move on. Although "actions speak louder than words" and "where there's a will, there's a way", I am very heavy hearted to just move on from my very much unavailable new interest. 

I don't want to LET GO! 

I don't want to MOVE ON! 

I don't want to LOSE HIM! 

(Well, I hope he feels the same too. I know since he is unavailable then he wouldn't feel the same but there were times that he acted this way too. Often when I said I wanna leave him, he won't allow me to do so. He holds me back!) 

But, there is nothing I could do. I will settle it one day. Perhaps the day when I have extraordinary courage to do so. Meanwhile, I shall just go with the flow?! Sounds so wrong but I am so torn between chasing for what I want in life maybe not for now but for the future or let go of this person for the rest of my life. 

I don't know what I am doing is right or wrong! 

Relationships are complicated!

Chili Red No More

Oh Sigh, I removed my nail polish on my fingernails. After a night, I woke up finding 'em all ruined  by me. No sure how but was all looking horrible with lines and thumbprints and so on. Then, re-painted again hoping it will look good but I don't have the mood. Then newly painted nails look all right but I don't feel it's nice and I decided to remove all of it. Leaving my nails bare and colorless again. Chili Red No More. Not quite easy to remove though because the nail polish applied was too thick. Oh well, it's all right. I supposed healthy nails i.e. no-chipping nails are way nicer than colored nails?! Haha... Or perhaps, I'll visit the nail parlour soon for a retreat. That will be after exams. Cheerio... 

Red & Blue Nails

I finally painted my nails... 

It's been two long years since I last did nail polish... 

Fingernails are Chili Red whereas Toenails are Navy Blue! 

One fine day, I had the urge to do something to my nails because when I stared at it, it looked so naked, bare and boring! I love colors and always wanted to go for manicures and pedicures but the package is often expensive and I am a person who needs to do house chores, therefore I find it a waste of money. So, I ended up painting my own. No where near perfect but at least some colors on it. As long as I am happy. 

I can't deny that I am a lil quite a perfectionist. I hate seeing the slightest scratch after painting my nails and I won't do anything for quite sometime. Unfortunately, the nail polish didn't dry entirely and I started ruining it. Then, I'll need to clean it and paint again. Sigh, only one finger's nail got ruined. I'm not gonna touch the nail polish remover or it will ruin all ten nails. Haha... perfectionist failed at the moment! LOL! 

Why haven't I paint my nails in two years? 

Kindly allow me to story... And I suddenly got really sad... 

Back in 2010, it was just like now. I like painting nails. That was before I broke up with my first love. I put nail polish on and off as and when i like. Then when I broke up, I became very depressed. So, I started having nail polish all the time. I change nail colors every two to three days and never left it naked with no paint on 'em. Every time I am upset, I paint my nails to new colors. Later, my nails start chipping. The constant nail polish on my nails spoilt my nails. My nails chipped terribly layer by layer and became so fragile. That's a disaster to my nails.

In 2011 till now, I didn't dare pain my nails because it has all fully recovered from chipping. It took a year plus... Yet again, I just applied nail polish. This time is purely for fun not because I am upset over my ex. I should be done with him but I have a new interest that cause me heartache as well. SIGH! Sorry, side track a lil. Anyway, I should get new nail polish, my nails chipped maybe because the current polishes that I am having are some lousy and cheap brand. I should get better ones. let me shop for nail colors one day. They are rather costly thought, probably I won't be able to own many colors then. Or collect colors at a slower pace because I used to buy few colors at one go. Yay! 

I love colored NAILS!!! 

=) 

September 24th - Just another Sleepy Day

Are Mondays generally BLUE???

At times the term really do apply as I feel real cranky on a Monday morning especially when I have to drag myself off bed at 6 am just for a one and a half hour class at eight. This is really annoying, I know that pretty well but I can't afford to skip as the lecturer will teach a new topic although it supposed to be a tutorial.

Nonetheless, today wasn't the case of just being 'blue'. It was plain lack of sleep the night before. Doing assignment that I am forced to finish off before I leave for my trip. Cranky morning, not so but extremely sleepy but the Stats class didn't allow my as it required active brains.

Slacking the whole day as I supposed to complete one assignment and start another. But, no. All I did was spending time with my parents and nephew plus napping. Oh well, yet I completed one. I'm glad as that one due earlier. However, I better start another before I regret. That's when the time I say to myself crying as of no use.

Chiao!

Short Trips and Reality

Back to reality which means BACK TO ASSIGNMENTS!!!

I went for a weekend trip with my colleagues to Malacca but THREE of my assignments pending.

Now, back to work! Need to complete at least two before I go off for another trip on Thursday.

Woah, what a busy period. As much as I love traveling, I am very worried about my course works too.

Promised to go for trips that were planned long ago nonetheless, uni's workload is really depressing.

SIGH!!!

T_T

Your "virtual" Hug

...all I need is just
                       
                           a HUG

                                     from You...     

- a virtual HUG from you were somewhat good enough :) - 

New URL

From the beginning of June till now, almost the end of July that I've been saying I want a new blog URL. Finally, I did changed it to dw-ilovefebreary instead of my real name on the blog!!! Yay!!! =)

P/S : I'm just too lazy to blog at times... Haha!

Nitez....classes from eight am to five pm!!!

A New Blog ADDRESS Soon

I have mentioned this quite sometime ago!!!

That I want to do something to my blog. An all New Blog!!!

Yet, I took so long.. Hehe..

Oh well, I'm doing it bit by bit as you can see the Blog Name and the header have changed.

Next, I'll change my blog ADDRESS too..

So, if you are a reader of mine (not sure if I have any, saddening much!!!)...

Kindly leave me a comment and I shall notify you my new address!

Or if you wanna remain unknown, then just search using the blog name. You might just come across it...

Thanks A Bunch!!!

Ciao, back to books again. Last paper tomorrow, WISH ME LUCK!!!

Cheerio C=

Final Exam for a Subject I Sweat MOST!!!

EXAMS NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE???!!!

Once again, it's final examinations for this semester. I started my paper last Monday and it's for a fortnight. A humungous gap in between the 1st and 2nd paper. I basically fooled around like as though papers are all done. 

And SO, tomorrow is a paper which I'll sweat most. It's a paper for my major for the degree. Oh yea...hell important. Very scared of it, a lil worried but I must not fear. I MUST BE CONFIDENT & REMAIN CALM!!! Say NO to nervousness... I shall conquer you!!! 

Like obviously, I had the mid term before this. This particular subject freaked me out. I was at an extreme level of nervousness. The moment I woke up for the day on my paper, I begun to be nervous. Till then I went into the exam hall, I couldn't be clam to write it. SIGH!! I never want this to happen tomorrow!!! 

Nonetheless, I only studied two of five chapters up till now. Yes, I am to be blame of laziness and too much fooling around. I better not screw this because it's a 100% calculation paper, no theory needed. Plain practice all along since day one but me, I didn't!!! Roughly, I know what is going on but I better brush up!!! 

Alright, back to BOOKS!!!

Say "No" to Cranky Morning

I arise in the morning feeling really cranky. It feels like the whole world ill-treated me. Oh yea, I slept only at 2am compared to my normal beauty sleep hours at 12am at most. Then, I had a very intense conversation with my significant friend (not a significant other). He left me pondering on "us". Definitely, this guarantee a very moody me in the morning.  

Ahhhh...why let all these tremble you down when you know you will be having a fun day with the BFFs! Indeed, I'm going for Klang Bak Kut Teh with my kampung of girlfriends. 

Till then...

Cheers for a fun day ahead! 

=) 

The "I'll call you back" Statement

This statement is so true. I feel what this person expressed because I self experienced it. You know it won't happen and you know you shouldn't wait but often you expect that it will actually happen. SIGH!!! Most of the time, it never will... 

I Needa A Cuppa Cheer on this very Moody Friday

Woke up feeling very moody!! 

The past was like hitting real bad on me. I had class early in the morning but was so reluctant yet I don't have a choice. When I'm in Uni, one friend texted that she will not be attending so I am okay since they will be another girl. Waited for the latter, texted her but no reply. Went over to the campus for class and just when I wanted to look for a place to sit in that skeptical lecture hall, a course mate approached me to take a photo for her with the signage "I love Marketing"! Fine, I did so since it was for her project. Given a choice, I will not allow her to capture a photo since I had this humungous zit on my nose. Argh, annoying much. 

Sitting by, chatting here and there a lil. Yet, I weren't any cheerful at all. It was a long dreading time for both the  lecture and a tutorial. Right after class ended, I drop by Starbucks since I have to wait for a Lasallian junior from Taiping coming for an interview in Uni. Didn't I mention? My mobile's battery was running low. Double moodiness!!! Starbucks for a cuppa cheer that was some fruity frappe but it didn't tasted as expected. Somehow, I prefers the coffee or the green tea. 

Then, the junior came and I chatted with him till and left home to see my nephew and mum's cooking was the best!!! Deep inside me, still feeling moody as I have moments of silence but to them I am as cheerful as I always did. Well, this should be the way. 

To him, my BGF. I texted him very early in the morning but I had no replies and he finally called at two but I missed it as I was with the junior. Moodiness kills that I didn't bother to return his call because I felt that he didn't even care about me. However, I need him. Yes, let me repeat that I need him to cheer me up because he never fails to do so. This is why I adore him and I cherish our friendship uber much. So, I called him but he didn't answer. 

Oh..can I also say that I was moody and I feel like crying for no apparent reason?! I calculated my cycle and it's almost the time of the month. Sheesh.. 

That's How April Begun!

Dear April,

You haven't been that good to me.

Or should be positive and say so far so good!

Started  off the month with a taxing week finishing of my research proposal and literature review for my Business Research paper that is a pre-requisite for my thesis. Oh well, a kinda last minute work and thank God the lecturer extended out deadline, just 4 days more were better than nothing. That was because our tutor taught us again on the Friday just before we need to hand-in on Monday on how to do the proposal. He taught us few times but we didn't have the hang to get started at all. Hence, we got a few days extra compared to another major.

Nonetheless, I was dead worried about me not able to meet the deadline so I asked for a permission to extend for a week. Partly, because my topic was rejected twice by my tutor. I discontinued putting thought in the initial topic because I actually simply pick one. Then, I was serious about the second. I purposed my idea to my tutor and he rejected it stating that it's not related to my major. In fact, it was one of my core subject that was so important. Sigh.. I really wonder how is he qualified to be a tutor, what's more to say A Lecturer!

That was about the two assignments. Another scariest thing is the plagiarism report of the two write-ups. Phew.. less than five percent, we're give a maximum of twenty percent. Well, honestly..I felt kinda skeptical because my percentage was only one and two! Whereas, others are around five or the majority of ten to twenty. Hmmm.. I really don't know. Anyway, handed-in already!

Then, followed by mid-semester test and today was the first paper. Opened book test, barely studied as usual. LOL!!! Yet, I managed to do the Financial Math but didn't have enough time to complete all the questions. Sigh!!! Argh.. Let's do better for assignment and finals, shouldn't I??!! Oh well, YES I MUST!!!

Last paper on Thursday and it's the toughest because the lecturer already warn us. Two questions for two hours but she said it won't be enough. then, why on earth she set such a tough paper. Goodness gracious, she expects us to master it just like that. Boom!

Sincerely,

ME.

It's April Already

From the last I say Bye to February... 

I didn't said Hi to March at all... 

...and...

It's now April already!!! 

Woah...TIMEFLIES! 

I shall announce the begin of exams and assignment due dates. 

Hectic month a head and I can't wait to sleep more especially these days. 

April please be good and quick, so that I'll see my holidays soon! 

~xoxo~

The Day of A Leap Year : 2NineTwo

A very special day, only 4 years once. It's 29 February and it's officially the last day of my beloved February. 

Nothing special happened to me, same routine that was attending classes the whole day. A total of twelve hours in uni. Just a little more sweaty because I walked back and forth (by shuttle bus I meant) from KPD to Main Block and also to lunch. One good thing, I finally settled my fees. One payment was outstanding, worrying there will be penalty charges. 

Oh.. I had a chance to meet my BGF's girlfriend without him here but I declined because I had a long day since morning plus my nose is on a full marathon. I wonder how will it be like if I'd join my friend who is the one asked me to join them for dinner. Aiks.. he met in an accident today and tomorrow is his birthday. Let's hope good luck will be with him always. 

After months and months getting closer and closer to my best friend. I always tell him how  much I miss him and I really do misses him. Just met him over the weekend but I didn't get enough making me missing him much. Finally, he told me today. Jokingly or whatever, I'm no bothered. I'm just gonna accept it and take it seriously. Haha! I'd tell him that I really hope I won't only get to hear it 4 years later... 

Ooooo TwoNineTwo... 

-iLoveFebruary- coming to an end. 

Indeed, an AWESOME Month!!!

Bubye February with Luv... 

See you next year... *can't wait*

Last Day of February, NO - last Tuesday!

Minimal water consumption with extremely lacking in sleep and running/walking for a long distance under the very hot Sun yet I didn't reach my clue for The Amazing Lasallian Race TALSAR. I've now got running nose and a sexy voice!!!

So, long dreading day classes from 8am till 6pm especially after a weekend blast.

Back2Back classes with short break in between. This was what I had till dinner..

Banana Chocolate Chip Muffin & Green Tea Latte

That was at half past one and then rushed for class till six evening..

Dashed off when the lecture finished to avoid congested traffic.

Oh reached uni at 7.30am this morning and I was already parking at the last row. Student overloaded!!!

In the midst of the sort of heavy traffic, I had this...

Lemon Macaroons from Chocolat World

Oh yea, sugar rush is very much in need.

Just in time to be home for dinner...

Then, just before I bathe, I cut my fringe and I have "BANGS" now..

Looking odd but for a change after two years since I did so... Why not?!

Now, time for bed. Same routine tomorrow..

Hectic weekend past, Monday was to replenish sleep and Tuesday was a long day.

Wednesday the 29th February awaits...

Very Special, only fouryearsonce...

-TuesdayBLUES,iMissIpoh-

Today is TwoTwo Two!

A peaceful day at home, classes and home again!!!

Happy Birthday to myself!!!

23 years of age - another year older...

Hopefully another year wiser!!!

Happy TwentySecond February TwentyTwelve

Happy TwentyThree or the Big TwoThree

=)

Let's welcome February!

Bye bye January with a smile. It treated me very well and filled with much happiness. Let's give a warm welcome to the most special month of the year! 

- iLoveFebruary -

♥ ♥ ♥

Happy Lunar New Year

Welcome to the Year of  the WATER DRAGON!!!
(23-01-2012 : 大年初一)

恭喜发财

新年快乐

万事如意

身体健康

青春美丽

龙马精神

心想事成

开心乐龙龙

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A week full of Lunar New Year celebration, lots of good food and meeting relatives. This has yet to end, still can do visiting and collect more red packets. It is still a brand new year just that work and school have had started like usual. I'll soon make a post on the feast I had whole of CNY!!!  

My day to "Hoi Gong"... I'll sure to receive an Ang Pow from my lady boss. Let's see what she says to me this year round. Last year when she gave me, she wished that I'll quickly find a boyfriend. Haha... 

Happy Monday - Gong Hei Fatt Choy

Dreamt of Mr. Ex Since A Long Time

It's been quite sometime since I ever thought of my ex-boyfriend. I do admit that recently, I've been visiting his FB pages and studying his updates. Reason me using the word studying simply because that's what I really did. Indeed, been a long time since I last do that. I begin to kept on wanting to know about him. I also tried to hide the list but can't. Nevertheless, that just ended there after viewing his page and I don't have the slightest thought of him throughout the whole time rather or do am I missing him. No, I didn't felt that way.

All went well so as my emotions. Till this morning's sleep I weren't sound asleep. I have a series of dreams and one of it was him. I didn't dream of him for almost/more that a year. I really wanted to continue dreaming, being deep in my sleep to be so close to him and getting to talk to him. Ever since the dreamt of him, I've been thinking of it whole day long. I weren't feeling sad or emotionally down, I am (Yes, till this moment that I'm soon tugging in for another day) adoring the feeling i had in the dream. I smile every time I thought of it.

The content that I dreamt was that I went on a date with him. Totally a new feeling from me being with him two years back. We were getting to know each other all over again, went for lunch then walk around spending quality time together like normal friends. Later, I went home to my parents' and we sat by the staircase, not knowing why we didn't get into the house. We chatted, something happened in between (not kissing) and I asked so what are we now? Friends getting to know each other or??? He smiled and held my hand with fingers inter-locking mine. I am almost melting. Moments later I was opening the door and he told me he want to sleep in for the day and I didn't allowed him. However, he came in to have a sit and I tidied up my room and my dog started jumping on him. He then said "Wow..Hey, you have a dog now"! While I was tidying the room, my parents came back. Sadly, that's the END...

That's how sweet it was. Never wished that I'd wake up from my sleep so that I can see him for a longer time maybe because I really miss him. Imagine me not wanting to rise and shine. I'd try to sleep and continue the dream but I think it was a different story which I can't recall. Not as significant perhaps. Well, I had to say the the Mr. Ex-Boyfriend is someone very significant to me and his departure in my life impacted me so much. Gone Forever. I was very much torn inside. It took me a year to get over him and even longer to entirely move on.

This dream I dreamt disturbed me thee whole day. Making me so lazy because I was supposed to meet up a friend. Yet, I didn't want to. Never wished to have dreamt of this person because if you remember it, it will haunt you; if you don't it will be another fine day. Later, I digested the dream and why would he appear in my dream. Maybe because I never knew that I am missing him so much. Like I mentioned earlier, a long while since so I thought I'm done with him. Well, at this moment I'd say I am done with him. That's why I said I never knew I missed him.

However, I should not be bounded and held back by this incident. Just the thought of the day and that should be it. Or else it's gonna eat me up inside. Then, I'll be emotionally down think of him so much. He is the past, there is a reason he didn't make it till the present here sitting by my side nor ever will he be my future. It was just a dream and dreams when you're asleep maybe not be true or even if it may happen, it will definitely not be now. Get it done, be strong!

If it was a year back or may I have not moved on, I will wished for the dream to be realistic one fine day. I'll be always hoping and think of this sweet moment that I had with him in the dream. Now, I don't want to think so much nor hope that it will one day be real. Going through day by day learning more to enhance myself. iLove myself...

An so, disturbed and he or more like the dream being the thought of the day. So, I texted my best friend telling him that I am emo and things gone worst that I actually dreamt of him. His replied was "Ter...you miss your ex more than me one, sad dy". haha..that actually made my day. I love talking to this guy, he never fail yet to cheer me up but one thing bad is that he replies like a snail. It takes ages at times. I always tell him if I ever need him, I'll die stranded looking for him. Thank you so much and I actually do miss you a lot. [additional note ; He told me that I'm not allowed to miss him because he can't be there(here) when I miss him. awww..how sweet?!] He has so many nicknames but the one I like most is Clown :) my personal clown!!!

Let's not be bothered by what I dreamt of this morning and be thankful for a best friend who always cheers me up. Also, to have a good night sleep now. Not to think so much and stress myself up plus hurting me inside. Smile for happy days with people who appreciates me. Hugs!!!