Random Write Up & Dear Netbook

How rarely do I write a blog post compared to ever since I started my blog, on a count from 1 to 10; probably only 1% of 1 that I did wrote blog posts over the past one year. I've missed writing and expressing myself through words. I've gotta admit that I wished I dedicate more time on this because I find peace in writing. But, my work had had kept me very much occupied over the past one year, Also, it was emotionally and mentally tiring to keep up with the office restructuring, project and people at work. 

Today's been a day I am squeezing the very bit of time to sit and write because 

1. I'm passing my BELOVED Netbook to my dad. 

2. Public holiday for the state I worked in. 

3. Staying at home doing nothing. 

4. Not playing my usual mobile games. 

5. Completed the drama series that I've been chasing to finish. 

Excuses much, Haha!! 

Oh well, indeed on my usual days over the weekends I will not want to switch on the computer again and hence, I do not blog. I don't really Facebook too even though there is an app. 

Let's reserve the excuses and get started as I can only spend a little time on this. 

Gotta pack and get ready for work tomorrow after a long break. 

Not just a long weekend break, I was on a long medical leave since end of November all till now that is mid of December. I'll reserve the details for my next post (hopefully) because I said I would like to share my experience on my fear of walking in and getting a minor procedure done all alone. The pain, the mental strength and the courage, I think I deserved a pat on the back. One week of MC plus the weekends and holidays hence, it was a long recovery period. Thank God. All is well now and I'm fit to be at werk (work) or else my boss will sack me.

Okay next, I mentioned that I'll be passing my Netbook to my dad?! >_< Yes, I am. He requested it to bring along if he needs to travel in order to enable him to continue his FB games. Gosh... Yeaps, my dad plays online games (like addicted). Mehhhh... 

Dear Netbook, 

Thank you for serving me well. You've are still functioning well though I can't expect much as you're just running on Atom unlike desktops and laptops. You have served me well throughout my Uni days with the many assignments to write up and also some study materials. Besides that, you've been a great partner during my Lasallian convention days as you're small and light to travel with despite your speed. But hey, I managed to get work done with you. Bravo, my beloved! 

My biggest fear when I did not have extra cash to get a laptop back in my uni days was when you fail me. While you behaved well whereby I only replaced the battery pack once. Back then, I was constantly worried that you will not be able to survive through my Final Year Project. Final semester on my final year with not much savings, I definitely could not afford to get something new. Thankfully, we pulled it through and I've graduated for 2 years plus now. 

Then, I used you very rarely once I started working and my current job provides me a laptop which means you have been set aside for awhile. Every time, I switch you on I'd worry that you'll not light up as it was once in a blue moon which I think your battery will be fully drained off. Always being thankful (lucky) you did not fail me. Love you!!! ^^

Oh ya.. Oh ya.. another thing I like about you is that you have a memory card reader for my camera's memory card. I seldom use it but I like it cause there is no need to hunt for an external card reader which I heard it can easily cause virus to the PC. 

Now, I've cleared up all my data and did a virus scan before passing it to my dad. I am sure he'd take good care of you. Please, be nice to him. 

I have owned you for 6 years and still counting. 

Thank you for walking through with me for the past years, during my uni and Lasallian days. 

I appreciated that I owned you because I wouldn't know how else would I be able to own a device for my studies. Those years were the days I needed a PC most for studies and my very active involvement in the Lasallian movement. 

A snapshot of my dearest before I cleared the data.

Thank you once again. 

With love, 

Your owner. 

P/S : Tomorrow will be my first day of work ever since my medical leave, I had a bad dream or somewhat nightmare this morning in my sleep. I dreamt that my boss changed my jobscope without notifying me which I will take it hard on myself. Worst was that there are mountains of invoices which are not under my custody/work nature was all stacked on my desk. Colleagues were complaining to my boss on the late payment and me being me I made a big fuss in the office saying that it was not supposed to be done by me moreover, I was on medical leave. Nightmare isn't it. Let's see tomorrow. 

Cheers xx

Rasa Kehidupan

Keletihan rasa masam,
Kesunyian rasa pahit,
Keperitan rasa pedas,
Kesedihan rasa masin...

Jikalau kita campurkan semua dengan baik, rasanya tentu sedap.

Begitu juga dengan kehidupan...

Kalau macam itu, apakah yang rasa manis?

Apabila memandang orang yang dicintai, rasanya manis.
Apabila memegang tangan orang yang dicintai, rasanya manis.
Apabila mendengar suara orang yang dicintai, rasanya manis.
Apabila berada di sisi orang yang dicintai, rasanya manis.
Apabila orang lain rasa iri hati terhadap kita dan pasangan, rasanya manis.
Apabila sesuatu perkara boleh dijadikan kenangan, rasanya manis.
Kejutan dalam kehidupan semuanya manis...

Perasaan dalam hidup berbagai-bagai rasa!

I Journal The Unhappiness

I sometimes wonder why do I write more about what that bothers me. 

I rarely share the occasions that makes me happy. 

It may looked like I live in the saddest in life. 

That I am a very negative person. 

Yea, I have to admit that I can be very negative.

But, I will not let it suck me up!

I do have many happy moments.

I know when I need to be positive. 

Yet, I choose to write most of the heartache stories. 

Journal-ing is  a way I express my unhappiness.  

I write my unhappiness as a form of releasing my emotions.

Despite having really close friends, I choose not to share with anyone.

I always kept what upsets me in my heart. 

Till, I learnt the art of writing it out. 

Enjoyment may not be the perfect word to fit why I'd prefer to journal unhappiness. 

But, the sense of relief I gain from it is what that will make me feel better.

Fourth of July Twenty Sixteen

Hello...

Stealing some work time right after lunch to write a few words.
Is not like I went lunch or I ate anything but I took a break from handling all the papers on my table to randomly browse the net and the brother texted.

Initially I'd thought I will just close my eyes to rest and to Blog since I haven't been writing for some time. I always wanted to try writing from my Mobile but I have yet to give it a try or figure out how to do so.

Option 1 :
Write using Note or Words and copy&paste via the Web Browser on my mobile.

Option 2 :
Download the App, I think I've seen it somewhere.

Let's get back to papers at work despite the quiet office's environment as it is Raya season and Boss is away for work.

Yippieeeee but not so fun....

P/S : I will try the mobile blogging so that I can always Blog. I miss writing as in the form of words I pen down to express my emotions rather than sharing to a listener.

I DO Want to be MARRIED, Mother!

Chinese New Year has gone by. Hence, we are called as another year older despite the month we are born. This is not as important for my topic today. What’s bothering me or the question I have often been asked was that if I have a boyfriend? With my age this year, though I am not where touching Thirty but I am not that young but never too old. This Chinese New Year, I have been asked by my parents and mum’s friends. I should say that I have been asked by them last year onwards.

Then, just over the weekend my mum and I was talking about boyfriend and marriage. I told her that I want someone in life. She then told me that it is alright to not get married. I said No way and I stared at her. I asked her why did she said that and I said who said I am fine not being married.

She said, unlike sister… When sister was younger, she always said she wants to be married. Fine, I said “Mum, I do want to be MARRIED”. Hmmmm…Mum said…like this you’ll sure to be married.

My closest friend would know that I always needed someone in life and I've always wanted to be married to the man I love and have a family with him. I still have that in mind no doubt I have failed relationships. I do not mean that I want be marry anyone or any time soon but I do want to be married.

Till the day I find the love of my life, I patiently wait and pray for my better half to be in my life and share a life journey together

I have met this person. I pray... 

Hello 2016!!!

Haven’t been posting much, countable posts for the past one year.

I've always thought of writing again but I couldn't push myself to do it with whatever reasons I may be procrastinating with. But, I have always enjoy writing because my blog has been a medium for me to express my feelings and most importantly some things that can’t be told or shared through telling my close buds.

I am taking the opportunity over lunch hour now write. Lately and usually I have been going out for lunches with colleagues. When I first joined this company in July 2015, I don’t eat lunch or I bring my own lunch box. Then, I came to know some colleagues, joined the clan and later I have a close colleague who I lunch with. This colleague is on half day today and I had Nasi Lemak at 10ish. Hence, skipping lunch, actually I still can fill my stomach if you were to ask me.

Work?!

It has been stressful and hectic. Sometimes, it is taking a toll on my emotions and motivations to continue working here. I left my previous job mostly because of the people and joined my new and current company. Currently getting along with my own colleagues but there are some quite difficult people all around. I guess that is pretty normal for all companies. That’s about people. Now, about the workload. Can I just skip this topic already? Yes, to not rant about it. Just yesterday that I was at the verge to breakdown. I sat and stared at the papers on my tables and my email, I didn't know where and how to start. I got so upset and I could just cry. I controlled my emotions.

Gossshhhhhhh… Guess what?!

My PC just shut down on its own a moment ago. Auto shut down it did.

Life?!

Life has been good apart from working till past 8pm on most of my days. Definitely there are ups and downs in life. Family, friends, self….overall not too bad. Oh hey, I am still alive. All that I am thankful for.

Relationship?!

Very much Single and Available. Currently hunting for a new prey and I most definitely hope that this should be “The ONE” or at least work together in the relation to achieve our lifetime together. Yes, I am ready to settle down if I am to have someone who thinks the same as me and whom I am willing to be with him for the rest of my life. In fact, my past loves are those that I did thought of being with them for the rest of our lives together, to grow old and till death do us apart. But, things didn’t work out the way I always dream of with them. Hence, moved on and hope that one day I will finally encounter this one special person whom we both will be as ONE.

A little bit more about the lovelife, I have been having this one person by my side but he is not exclusively my boyfriend. I have been very upset before, thought of doing whatever that could hurt myself just so that he will care for me and I also have tried a few times to leave him. All didn't work out including my love for him. I do love and care for him a lot and he is significant to me. But, I guess I have been tired over having this not-exclusively-mine relationship for the past five years. I have built my own courage, sufficient time I had for myself and last year, in 2015 that I finally decided to walk out of this. Which means I have walked out of his life. Walked out of a life that I myself was so into with this significant person I have for all these years. I missed him dearly. Nonetheless, I am not regretting and I did not regret spending my time with this person even though we are not exclusively together. Definitely I was sad then but I wasn't like how my previous attempts that I goes back to him. This time I succeeded, I do think of him sometimes and that’s when the missing him moments come by, feelings on this soon suppresses. I am glad. I am so glad, happy, relieved; you named it. Oh ya…my pals were telling me how proud they felt for me because I have finally walked out of it. Best compliment I think I gotten from this was “You looked much happier now”. Then, I puzzled…if I looked that unhappy last time. It’s alright, I am feeling goof, fine and happy now. Greatest achievement in 2015 was this. I am happy and proud! I called it an achievement in my life just yet because I have few attempts previously but didn't worked. 2015 it did. YAY!!! *pats on the back for myself*

Hmmmmm…. I’ll let this be a post for now. Add ons for 2015 shall be later perhaps. Time to start work again too. I would want to leave office early today. Till then.

Happy New Year!!!

Happy Twenty Sixteen!!!