I'm into You!

Yesterday or last night gave me great memories with friends and especially him. We went for a 10 km race together and he was the one who pushes me to complete it and if it was not because of him, I will not participate the race. 

After last night, he became more significant to me. Memories with him and the affection for him is deeper since. At this time, I should admit that I think I am really into him but all I know is he can't be with me. The reason because he has a girlfriend. 

I know that it is so not right but I can't stop myself from liking someone, falling for him deeper and deeper. This three months, he is here near me for work. It's only the first two weeks, I met him a couple of times and every time I meet him was a bliss. Obviously, last night means a lot to me. 

Owh, that 10 km race. I'm so tired now and I have no mood to study for my finals beginning tomorrow. I am so dead. I can't concentrate due to tiredness and thinking of him. Nonetheless, I don't have a choice. I need to revise. I will definitely meet him after 3 papers this week. I can't wait. 

I'm so into you, yes you! The you that I ran my first race with. You're very significant to me. 

Maybe the Happy Ending is Just Moving On

Maybe what is said is absolutely right. A happy ending doesn't include a guy and happy ending is just MOVING ON! 

If it's as easier said than done, I have long move on. Although "actions speak louder than words" and "where there's a will, there's a way", I am very heavy hearted to just move on from my very much unavailable new interest. 

I don't want to LET GO! 

I don't want to MOVE ON! 

I don't want to LOSE HIM! 

(Well, I hope he feels the same too. I know since he is unavailable then he wouldn't feel the same but there were times that he acted this way too. Often when I said I wanna leave him, he won't allow me to do so. He holds me back!) 

But, there is nothing I could do. I will settle it one day. Perhaps the day when I have extraordinary courage to do so. Meanwhile, I shall just go with the flow?! Sounds so wrong but I am so torn between chasing for what I want in life maybe not for now but for the future or let go of this person for the rest of my life. 

I don't know what I am doing is right or wrong! 

Relationships are complicated!

Chili Red No More

Oh Sigh, I removed my nail polish on my fingernails. After a night, I woke up finding 'em all ruined  by me. No sure how but was all looking horrible with lines and thumbprints and so on. Then, re-painted again hoping it will look good but I don't have the mood. Then newly painted nails look all right but I don't feel it's nice and I decided to remove all of it. Leaving my nails bare and colorless again. Chili Red No More. Not quite easy to remove though because the nail polish applied was too thick. Oh well, it's all right. I supposed healthy nails i.e. no-chipping nails are way nicer than colored nails?! Haha... Or perhaps, I'll visit the nail parlour soon for a retreat. That will be after exams. Cheerio... 

Red & Blue Nails

I finally painted my nails... 

It's been two long years since I last did nail polish... 

Fingernails are Chili Red whereas Toenails are Navy Blue! 

One fine day, I had the urge to do something to my nails because when I stared at it, it looked so naked, bare and boring! I love colors and always wanted to go for manicures and pedicures but the package is often expensive and I am a person who needs to do house chores, therefore I find it a waste of money. So, I ended up painting my own. No where near perfect but at least some colors on it. As long as I am happy. 

I can't deny that I am a lil quite a perfectionist. I hate seeing the slightest scratch after painting my nails and I won't do anything for quite sometime. Unfortunately, the nail polish didn't dry entirely and I started ruining it. Then, I'll need to clean it and paint again. Sigh, only one finger's nail got ruined. I'm not gonna touch the nail polish remover or it will ruin all ten nails. Haha... perfectionist failed at the moment! LOL! 

Why haven't I paint my nails in two years? 

Kindly allow me to story... And I suddenly got really sad... 

Back in 2010, it was just like now. I like painting nails. That was before I broke up with my first love. I put nail polish on and off as and when i like. Then when I broke up, I became very depressed. So, I started having nail polish all the time. I change nail colors every two to three days and never left it naked with no paint on 'em. Every time I am upset, I paint my nails to new colors. Later, my nails start chipping. The constant nail polish on my nails spoilt my nails. My nails chipped terribly layer by layer and became so fragile. That's a disaster to my nails.

In 2011 till now, I didn't dare pain my nails because it has all fully recovered from chipping. It took a year plus... Yet again, I just applied nail polish. This time is purely for fun not because I am upset over my ex. I should be done with him but I have a new interest that cause me heartache as well. SIGH! Sorry, side track a lil. Anyway, I should get new nail polish, my nails chipped maybe because the current polishes that I am having are some lousy and cheap brand. I should get better ones. let me shop for nail colors one day. They are rather costly thought, probably I won't be able to own many colors then. Or collect colors at a slower pace because I used to buy few colors at one go. Yay! 

I love colored NAILS!!! 

=) 

September 24th - Just another Sleepy Day

Are Mondays generally BLUE???

At times the term really do apply as I feel real cranky on a Monday morning especially when I have to drag myself off bed at 6 am just for a one and a half hour class at eight. This is really annoying, I know that pretty well but I can't afford to skip as the lecturer will teach a new topic although it supposed to be a tutorial.

Nonetheless, today wasn't the case of just being 'blue'. It was plain lack of sleep the night before. Doing assignment that I am forced to finish off before I leave for my trip. Cranky morning, not so but extremely sleepy but the Stats class didn't allow my as it required active brains.

Slacking the whole day as I supposed to complete one assignment and start another. But, no. All I did was spending time with my parents and nephew plus napping. Oh well, yet I completed one. I'm glad as that one due earlier. However, I better start another before I regret. That's when the time I say to myself crying as of no use.

Chiao!

Short Trips and Reality

Back to reality which means BACK TO ASSIGNMENTS!!!

I went for a weekend trip with my colleagues to Malacca but THREE of my assignments pending.

Now, back to work! Need to complete at least two before I go off for another trip on Thursday.

Woah, what a busy period. As much as I love traveling, I am very worried about my course works too.

Promised to go for trips that were planned long ago nonetheless, uni's workload is really depressing.

SIGH!!!

T_T

Your "virtual" Hug

...all I need is just
                       
                           a HUG

                                     from You...     

- a virtual HUG from you were somewhat good enough :) - 

New URL

From the beginning of June till now, almost the end of July that I've been saying I want a new blog URL. Finally, I did changed it to dw-ilovefebreary instead of my real name on the blog!!! Yay!!! =)

P/S : I'm just too lazy to blog at times... Haha!

Nitez....classes from eight am to five pm!!!